Risky, risky post...

Haha. It finally happened. The waiting paid off, and oh it feels so good.
It's about feeling the authority, feeling important, feeling like people Want to know you.
It's amazing how a small little thing like that can make me feel so satisfied. Q probably hasn't even put a single thought into it. Yet here I am smiling, laughing to myself for what has just happened.
It's a confidence booster. To me, that places me not only above Q but also above R. Mainly because at one point I felt like Q and R are 'above' me. I don't know how many people do that but I tend to classify people with statuses. Not everyone, but some people. (I know it's not healthy, but it's an unconscious thing... it just happens. C knows what I'm talking about...) And everytime I manage to climb up my status ladder, or push someone off and out of the way, it just boosts that self-esteem a little bit more...

It's in It's in It's in!!!

my application i meant....
well i hope it goes through. i've technically just popped it into the internal mail pidgeon hole... hopefully it gets sent off to the right place, soon. I should actually be all excited about it only after I get a confirmation that they've received it...
Oh well.

Ah I really want to post pictures now but I'm in campus and I have no pictures with me :(
So too bad.

The test this morning was rather disasterous... What's the point of giving us a practice test if the practice test is almost Nothing like the actual test!?!??

And what's worse than discovering a vital bit of information that would affect 2 answers only about 30 seconds before the invigilator calls "TIME'S UP! Stop writing." !??

You see... it obviously could have gone better.


*New record! 30 posts in a month. thats like one a day... except sometimes I posted More than one a day and i skipped a few days...*

Dude...

What is wrong with me?
I don't seem to want to sleep. My test starts in about 7 hours.

I was so tired the last couple of days.
Today the day started out kind of lazy... but after some exercise... i got a bit too hyper.

I not only completed my torrens river jog in less time than i usually need... I started off my jog today from the Botanic gardens... looking for the rose garden. Which i found and its gorgeous. :)

pictures up soon.

for now, i really should SLEEP. although im really quite alert right now... :S

goodnight.

For the sake of an update

KJ was saying on her blog something like no matter how many times she reads through her archives she'll never get bored of it. I cannot agree more.
I guess with personal blogs like this, it's truly understandable. I mean, we blog about how we feel, what we think and whats going on in our lives at that point in time. It's all very 'syok sendiri', or in other words- self loving. It's about us. ME. Who cares more about ourselves than... ourselves? I want to know how I've grown, how I've changed (or not), what I was thinking and how I felt before about certain things. Other people don't really care about how we feel in the past do they? Unless they're a stalker and want to know every single thing about you. (Now that's a scary thought...)

And going slightly off topic...
I also enjoy reading my archives because what I write really shows who I am. And for that reason I don't mind friends and the public reading it as well. If it was a school paper like a creative writing essay, or a literature commentary or something, then NO i would never read it over again, nor would I let ANYONE else read it because I think my writing style is ridiculous. But when it comes to free writing like this when i write whatever that comes to mind, its all ME...
and I think my blog entries are not THAT boring. (ah more self loving...) ok fine. sometimes they're just plain boring. Especially when I go on about 'my day'. I mean, who cares about my day... when i'm reading back i dont read those blog posts that talk about 'my day' and those with lots of text that doesn't contain any interesting information. like this post for instance....

Overall, it's a bit of a risk because when you pour yourself out so much in a blog, people know everything about you. and they can judge you. But in the end of the day, who cares?

OK ignore the ending bit. You know how sometimes you have thoughts in your head but you just can't get it out in words that make sense... that's what's happened there. So if it made no sense to you or it was very repetitive then... just ignore :)

Zombie night

Apparently 25th October, Saturday night was International Zombie Night or something like that... that's what my manager told me anyway, when a bunch of zombies walked into Hungry Jacks screaming "CHIPS! WE WANT CHIPS!" but then bought some real food...

Anyway, since I don't have enough guts to ask these people to stop so i could take a picture of them, i ended up with a bunch of stalker pictures....

The girl in blue (above) carried around a dead bunny :( its head is falling off and blood was everywhere... i wonder how the bunny died... why would someone want to chop off a poor bunny's head!?? and NOT SUCCEED??)

So after a long time hanging outside HJ CW and I decided to head to my house... kind of. We headed to Scoozi to look at their cakes first and after taking a very long time to decide whether to eat or not, we didn't eat any cakes and we went to my house, played cards... and then ended up doing this:
lol... so random man. but CW showed me how to make the butterfly!! :) so happy.

Then we ended up with 1 more quarter of the apple... and in spirit of Halloween coming up next week.. i came up with this:

Muahahahaha!!

and then i gave it eyes...

Here's a video of the apple head! the eyes move... :)

And the weapon of choice and what's left of the apple... :

Toothache?

Or is there such thing as a gum ache...?

I'm someone who brushes my teeth religiously- morning and night. Without fail. I just have to. It's a routine thing that I do. But I never floss. People tell me I need to floss my teeth, but everytime I do, it causes problems. =.=

Which is exactly what happened a few days ago.
I remembered what these people told me and thought maybe it's about time I start flossing my teeth. So I did. It was all fine.

The next day however... my gums hurt. not all over... just... this one place.
you see, i have another wisdom tooth growing at the back... So far, just like my first one- it hasn't caused any problems. I can see about 4mm of it now... But ever since that flossing incident, my gum around that area hurts. It didn't help that when i ate my cereal this morning, i bit down really hard on some hard bit (dried apple im guessing...) at that painful tender area... OMG that hurt like shit.

I considered the possibility of a cavity in my tooth... but its not the nerves in the tooth or whatever that hurts, its the gum area, away from all that teeth... :(

I think i vaguely remember something like that happening before sometime ago... But after a while (a few days... longer than now) it went away.

So hopefully *fingers crossed* the pain goes away soon. And it'll probably be a while before I use the floss again :S or maybe just floss the front and ignore the back cuz its always the back that's causing problems.

But if this doesn't resolve itself in the next few days... Maybe it's time i visited a dentist somewhere outside Kuantan...

Where is the dentist anyway?? :S

WHOA

It's a bit overwhelming to get so many results back in one day.
Lucky for me though, I did better than I had expected to :)
For the first time in a long time I got back a test with higher than 80% score >< (this is for the pathology exam the first day back to uni after 2 weeks break...)
the other one which was worth like... 25% well... I'm just really glad i didn't fail :)
Could have been worse. MUCH worse.

By the way, due to lack of sleep the previous couple of nights (i had about 9 hrs sleep in total for sunday and monday night...) I was completely exhausted yesterday. I actually attempted to go for a jog in the evening, started off and I just couldn't get myself to jog. Well, on top of that I started having a stomachache about 5 mins after i started walking. =.=
So anyway. what was supposed to be a 50 mins workout, turned out to be a 1h20mins walk plus about 10mins of mini jogging. lol. anyway i got home... had some nuggets and red bean soup for diner... then had to sort out some calculations i managed to mess up for my group report. I was falling asleep while looking through the numbers.
So after i sent it off to my group members...
i went to bed.
at 9pm.

woke up at 8am.

11hours of sleep.

O.O

now i feel so... strange.

(it was kind of 11 hours of sleep. i woke up a gazillion times... at 11pm, at midnight, at 1am, at 6am... i just couldnt sleep properly~ but well... i didnt want to get up. i needed sleep!)

Time for class.

Spring Is Here!

Flowers are blooming

(shut up, I know it looks green. but theres SOME flowers... ><)

The cygnets (baby swans) are out...

( I googled it... who the hell knows what a cygnet is...!?)

AND STRAWBERRIES ARE BACK!

muahaha. self loving.

I was also randomly strolling around the city today and found this shop at chinatown.

Look! SO CUTE. :)They also sold strange looking things...

Food

steak with mashed potatoes and cornI copied Astor's way of serving- put the steak over the potatoes...

oven baked chicken and peanut sauce (ok. a bit of a failure but didnt taste that bad. the chicken was good though. :))

I had veges separately ok...


The 'cake' which was really easy to make and everyone was complimenting i felt quite bad. but it was mum's uni life secret to easy yummy dessert that can't go wrong... so i didn't say much about it.... lol. (it looks so ugly though. didnt have a proper icing pump and i didnt know how to fold a proper one. the choc was coming out funnily...)

ee... i just realised theres this big white patch of random cream on the side... =.= ugly pic.

Inside!
ignore the mess around it. it was difficult to cut!

i saw some food online when i was at uni which had pretty decoration on it. couldn't wait to get my hands on an apple to try it. so when i got home i picked up and apple and this is what i got!

alright fine, so its probably way to big for my little glass (plus, when i saw it it was on a dessert, not glass of juice, but i had some apple mango juice and thought why not use it for something instead of just sitting there, then stuffed in my mouth)

The Weekend

Totally awesome.
Totally guilty.

Friday: 3 hours of lecture. bored to death. Then went to the bank with my vice president to sort out the club accounts. Headed to woolies after that to buy drinks (i was pulling an empty trolley around rundle mall and to the bank. >< was rather embarassing... but imagine hauling enough drinks for 10 people from rundle back home.... im so glad i brought it). Got home, dont know whre the rest of the time disappeared to, and before i knew it i was meeting people at Cafe Amore for dinner. After dinner, some people had to go home. The rest came over to my little apartment unit for drinks and card games and silly things like acting things out while we get the ex-president to sing :P The night ended later than we expected and since i had the house to myself i had some people sleeping over. slept at an ungodly hour of 6am or so~

Saturday: Woke up around noon. Had pancakes for brunch and conie and i played a number of rounds of Speed and Heart Attack again before she went home at around 4pm. im sure we didnt spend 4 hours on card games but im not sure where the time went. then i heated some stuff up for dinner, and went to work at 6pm. finish at 11:30. Went to conie's place and played with a beachball in her room... i felt bad for her housemates cuz the ball hitting the ceiling, walls, floor and anythign in sight was pretty loud... initially, thought might do something with kavi since its her bday is today but turned out mun was smsing the wrong phone, so we didnt hear much from them. then both of us went to have something to eat, then came over to my place, did a bit of facial... some manicure... and slept at another ungodly hour of about 5am.

Sunday: got up late noon today, messed around a bit more doing nothing~ dont know what else... then had dinner with friends because its Kavi's birthday (happy birthday kavi!!) then went to gelatissimo for some dessert... and now i'm here at campus to print out lecture notes. 200 slides of immunology notes to look forward to.
oh joy.

what a weekend.

Time to do something uni-related.
like studying perhaps...?

(darn. one more post and the pretty boys currently on my blog will go into archive and can no longer be seen... ><)

WTH Half my post disappeared!!! I'm so confused. so now i had to fix it. and its annoying trying to write the same thing for the second time. it just always sounds better the first time round. now i'm just BORED

Time To Myself

I was angry today. Not at anyone in particular (although Foster talking about yesterday's test and Hayball being who he is pissed me off quite a bit) but - at myself.

Classes started at a late 1:10pm today. I was up way before that. So I had loads of time to get sorted before attending class. For some stupid reason however, I only left home at 12:55pm. Got to campus, then realised I brought the wrong bag but it was too late to go home and get other bag. I didn't have any of my notes that I needed for lectures today. Honestly speaking, at that time I wasn't even sure what lectures I was going to have. So it took me a while to find a computer because it was sort of peak hour... when I finally managed to find one, and look up my timetable, I thought at that time- i needed to print out one set of lecture notes. Then I remembered my print quota had finished, so I had to top up my quota. After doing that I remembered that i didnt have any notes to print and that the notes i needed were actually at home, printed already. So after checking my timetable and knowing what class i had and where it was, i headed to class- a couple of minutes late. Lecture had already started. Lucky for me I didn't walk in alone, and I didn't need my notes for that lecture. Lucky for me also, the lecture ended early today, so I had about 20 mins to go home and get my notes for the next couple of lectures....
At such a critical time like this I show up at campus not knowing what I'm doing, where I'm going...
I should be angry at myself. I should actually do something about it...

So anyway, with my stupid hormones running amok and the whole thing about me being annoyed at myself and lecturers... and everythign in general. I left after class without talking to anyone really. I went to Rundle Mall and tried a bit of Retail therapy.
Spent ages in Valleygirl... of all shops, valleygirl plays the nicest music. :) After trying on about uhm... 10 different clothes, i got myself the top I've been eyeing since the day they put it out on display (its one of those they display right at the entrance).
then i went to Woolies and bought some much needed food. Not much though. Cuz i'm heading to the market tomorrow.

Came home and watched much TV... but i realised how filthy my house looks so i cleaned it up a bit... my room is still a bit of a mess though. but at least the floors are clean and the black stains on the carpet in front of the entrance door has been cleaned... thankfully they came off! (turns out all i needed was some clothes detergent. i bought a carpet cleaner but that turned out to be pretty useless for that stain... ><) This urge to clean the house usually indicates that my P is coming soon. I know. Weird. :S

i also baked a batch of oat & raisin muffins, and made some pancakes today. why all the baking?
I have milk that is expiring tomorrow so i need a way to finish up my milk. And i felt like making food! but i can only eat so much right? baked stuff can be kept.(except maybe the pancakes... but i kept those anyway) In the end i only used 2 1/2 cups of milk... maybe i could just have cereal tomorrow morning and finish it up. but what about my pancakes...? :S silly silly. maybe susbstitute pancakes for bread and make a sandwich out of it! (ew... gross.)

for those of you who are thinking- why not just drink up the milk?
I never liked drinking plain white milk ><

So that was my day. I'm surprised if you read through it all.
And I Thank You.

Motion City Soundtrack

Tell me that you're alright,

Yeah everything is alright.

Oh please tell me that you're alright,

Yeah everything is alright.

For some reason I had this tune playing over and over in my head...

By the way, the test... =failure. well, i HOPE i don't fail. if i get a 50% i'll be happy.
we only had 40 mins! wth. 40 mins for 25%?? not enough time...

Tonight i spent about 3 hours watching pointless boring TV, then spent another 3 hours reading Harry Potter again. :) What a waste of time.

Too old?

Naaah!! :P

Presenting... Richard Gere!
Took me a while, but i think the reason why i found him attractive as well is because he's got the same eyes as the previous 3 guys... :S

Old or not, he's still the most charming man on TV.

Have you watched Shall We Dance?
The following picture is a scene from the movie.

It's one of my favourite movie scenes... :)

I'm doing it again

It's 2:40am.
I'm not studying.
I'm not prepared.
I'm worried but not doing anything about it.
To think about it... i don't really feel the need to study.
WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME??

Why can't I just be like normal people who feels the need to, and actually do- study before a test?
Why can't i just sit down and study instead of drawing things all over the paper, watching tv, eating, scribbling, staring at notes... and not doing anything productive at all??

The funny thing is, i don't even have that sinking feeling in my stomach now. that feeling of 'OMG im going to fail tmrw's paper. NEED TO STUDY'
I do feel like i'm going to fail, but im not feeling the 'need to study' bit. whats wrong with me!?!?!?

then sometime later i'll be going on about how i'm not meant to be on this course, i'm doing the wrong thing. i should be doing something easier- but to think about it i don't think other courses would be any easier.

how stupid.

What do you do when...

When your Notes make sense as they are, but doesn't help in answering questions.
You're still on the waiting list for a textbook from the library.
The test is a day away... ??

I feel like a girlie tween again... :)

Never before have i done this (post hot celeb pics) on my blog. (or have i?? o.O ive been proven to have a very bad memory...)

Chace crawford Josh Hartnett
Zac Effron
They all have something in common...

Ok. maybe not just 'something'. MANY things... But there's one thing which makes you *melt*

One of those times...

I thought my test is starting at 8am instead of 4pm this coming tuesday. Now i have a work shift at 11-6:30pm and i'm screwed. Fingers crossed i'd be able to find someone to take over my shift... i'll find out later today. (ack... i feel SO SO Bad... jodie has to go sort out shifts again... ><)

I havent started studying for this tuesday's test. And now that shift thing is making me so worried i can't concentrate. ok thats just an excuse. i can't concentrate normally anyway.
OMG it's 25%!!!! WTH!!

I forgot what time my class started on weds. arrived 30mins early and Freaked out.

My house once again looks like a hurricane just went through it.

I was late for work last week. Almost late again last night. I lost my uniform cap. Now i dont know how im going to go to work, ask for a shift change, AND ask for a new cap because i lost mine.

I don't feel like talking to anyone at all.

I've been spacing out and falling asleep in lectures...
and at work...
i made so many wrong burgers yesterday. luckily it was busy and whatever i made managed to get sold instead of thrown out...

Its not like i havent had enough sleep. I mean, ok- monday night, tuesday night- maybe. but ive had enough sleep for the past few nights...

I've lost count of how many bumps, bruises and scratches i got from.... everywhere.

I snap at people who don't deserve being snapped at... I just get pissed off really easily. Because i dont feel like talking to anyone.

It's about time I try to get my act together again. I'm seriously breaking down. :S

is it too early to quit?

=.= tagged TWICE. Cannot ignore right?

Better do this before someone else tags and i have more answers to write for the bottom bit....

Tagged by MARINA and CONIE

State 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
The 10 people I tag are to then follow my footsteps and write their own 15 weird things/habits and little known facts.

1. I never make my bed in the morning- unless i have uncommon visitors.
2. I enjoy shopping alone.
3. When i was little i suck my thumb every time i sleep.
4. I can't sleep if I drink Coke too late in the evening.
5. I'm easily proud of myself.
6. I'm the most un-creative person I know. Everything I do has been copied of someone/somewhere.
7. I write a lot when I've got something on my mind. I keep 2 blogs, and a diary. and sometimes i just ramble something on microsoft word, and save it.
8. I can't stand wrong spelling and grammar. (Although i know I don't have amazing grammar myself)
9. I have 3 birthmarks. Only one is really visible.
10. I have a jellyfish bite scar on my right thigh
11. My pinkies are crooked.
12. I sing really loudly when I'm home alone.
13. I have never slept naked.
14. None of my friends have seen me cry in the past uhm.. 7 years i think. (since i started grade 9)
15. I found this thing extremely DIFFICULT to do because 15 is A LOT of things. i tell people too much.

I tag:

1) Kavi
2) Mun
3) Chian Ur
4) Eli
5) Cheryl

I'm nice. 5 ppl will do. I know someone else i could tag but it would be a waste of time cuz she'll never do it.

The person who tag you is?
Marina
Conie

What relationship of you with him/her?
Clubbing buddy
My Adelaide Bestie <3

Your 5 impressions towards him/her?'
Open, confident, friendly, straightforward, generous
caring, understanding, hardworking, timid, posessive

The most memorable thing that he/she has done to you?
yank the door of my apartment open on my birthday...
so many where do i start... giving me neck/back massages? :)

The most memorable word that he/she has said to you ?
oh my god! (ok. thats 3 words. i know. and actually i cant think of anything in particular, but she always says that... haha)
*squick*

If he/she becomes your lover, will you?
Aiyoh... their bf's will kill me ><>

If he/she becomes your enemy, will you?
Uh... i thought 'enemy' thing works both ways. she can't be my enemy if i'm not hers.

he/she has to improve on?
nothing i can think of at the moment! :)
being less guilty.

The most desirable thing to do for him/her is?
bring her doggie from miri to adelaide... haha.
get her a better paid job with a better manager...? :S

How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
Depends on where i am. but currently... slightly arrogant, boring, but sometimes too happy?

The character for you like for yourself is? (does this mean what i like about myself? seriously the english on this this is messed up... ive changed some stuff~)
Easygoing, usually cheerful, being quite independent... i think.

On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
Take some things too seriously, sometimes blabber too much and talk too fast, do stupid things when i feel intimidated, big time procrastinator.

The most ideal person you want to be is?
I think I'm pretty happy with who I am now.

For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them.
say something 'about them?' Who are we talking about here? I think there may be more than one person who cares about me right now... i could say something TO them, but there's no specific person to say something 'about' them. So.... here goes:
THANK YOU!! :) Because if i know who you are i would try to do the same.


OK. enough time wasting. Goodnight.

*edit* 11:23pm

gah... came to uni to STUDY for P&B- cuz i haven't started yet and my practice test was a disaster. I think its about time I go home. I got nothing done tonight.

free handbag?

I was browsing through kavi's blog and found out about this...

Handbag Planet is launching on October 15th, and they're giving out a free handbag every hour for 24 hours from their launching time! Who doesn't like freebies right... :)

Check it out:
http://www.handbagplanet.com/

UPDATE!

cuz i want to be stalked ;)

I'm a bit of an idiot.
I woke up today at 8:25am. took a shower, got changed and stuffed down some breakfast, and got to uni just on time. Or thats what i thought. I peeked through the door window of H2-02 and saw NO ONE.
I THOUGHT I HAD A CLASS AT 9AM!! IT WAS ALREADY 9:05!! WHAT HAPPENED!??!?!
so i went to check the other lab classrooms... but thats not right. one of them was for pharm, and theo ther was a microbiology lab! SO we can't have MCBT in those....
So i checked the class again and it was REALLY empty. i wasnt just dreaming it. So i hurried to a computer and looked up my timetable to be sure i had a class...
and it turned out to be at 9:30am.

=.=

I completely forgot it starts at half past...
I mean, can't blame me right?? We've had 2 of those lab classes this semester. today's the third. and we just had a 2 week break.
And i had abot 6 hours sleep last night, and 4 hours sleep the night before.
I was a bit of a zombie.... i've been sleeping at least 8 hours every night during the holidays. and my day's started at 1pm... see my point? ><

So anyway for the first time today i wasnt just on time for lab- i was early. 30 mins early.

photos and a couple of videos

girlies! -from the AGM bbq. I had no idea Ben was in that picture until i looked at it... He wasn't supposed to be there...

Sandwich!



=D
clingwrap is so awesome.

An attempt at making instant nescafe cappucchino look professional.

Attempt failed.

We stalk tall people.Bwahahaha! conie looks so excited :)

These couple of videos are from Hosan's Birthday Karaoke session in Buddha Bar back in July...

I absolutely love this song. But i can't sing it. Because i'm a banana...

-The End-

Aah... morning air

it's been a while since I'm up at such an early hour. :)
I woke up at 6:30am this morning (after trying to sleep at 1 and failing miserably...). Took an extremely long shower, had very slow breakfast and completely used up all the time i was supposed to be studying. which is why i woke up so early for in the first place ><
but i did read through some stuff... kind of.

So the test was at 8:10 and i guess it was ok. could have been better. could have been much worse considering i only started studying for it on sunday.

Strangely enough, I'm not actually feeling very sleepy or tired at the moment. So while i planned to go home to sleep after the test, I think i'll scrap that idea, and stay up until tonight. I've got work tonight though :S hopefuly i won't end up being so sleepy then...

Im usually quite hyper after a night of less than 5 hrs sleep though. its kind of strange.

*update at 10am*
ok. k guess im not so hyper after all... feeling kind of sleepy now.... :S
but i dont want to go back to bed! maybe i could just take a walk down rundle and buy some stuff for my famined fridge.

oh no. bad juju.

i just started on lecture 4, when i looked up at the computer and the time said 4:44. I hope it wasnt at 44 seconds too... but it felt like around 20 seconds before it changed to 4:45... maybe it WAS 44 seconds... :S


by the way, heffalump blog entry was post #333!
k. nothing special. i just like it when numbers align....

I'm at uni to study

But isn't Lumpy the Heffalump THE CUTEST disney character... EVER???

ok. couldnt stand the darkness

maybe that's the cause for all my depression.
not just pathology and microbiology.

Thanks Pa!

Earlier on today I felt like coming to blogspot just to write one thing:
FAILURE.

Fortunately though, I decided to give my dad a call since he's been complaining I havent called him in about a month... :S (Not entirely my fault!! I called a couple of times but he was never home... ><)
so i did just that. and im glad i did.

Dad had a point.

See, I told myself I couldn't do this job because of a number of reasons:
1) I'm going into 3rd year. I shouldnt be spending so much time on this
2) I have a part time job which already takes up so much time!
3) I still haven't finished my work experience!!
4) I don't have the leadership and communication skills. I can take instructions but I can't give instructions. I tend to want to do everything myself.

Well...
Sometime in my life I will have to be a leader instead of a follower. Even as a pharmacist. I mean, don't we have pharmacist assistants? What if i open my own pharmacy? Somehow or rather I will have to lead.
Later on in life, there's little chance for us to make mistakes and learn from that. What better time to learn than NOW when we're students, and best of all, running a student society where mistakes are manageable.

At one point in time I considered being the president because
1) i had ideas
2) i wanted to push myself, and do something out of my box.

Now i have the chance- why not grab it?

I guess I have been a bit doubtful over the whole 'taking over MySA' thing because I'm currently piled on with the assignment and tests that I have not yet studied for. Morever, even before the holidays started I was already worrying about having too many hours of work, and finding time to concentrate on studying for the tests. I was doubting my ability to effeciently juggle my time. I guess deep inside I wanted to show I couldn't do it and thus I could not figure out what steps I have to take to get things started, eventually pushing all the responsibility to someone else.

When you think you can't do something- you can't do something.

So far I've been pretty good at 'thinking I can' and getting things done. So why stop now?

Maybe I just need some time to clear my head, and stop worrying and everything will be fine. I'm sure it'll be fine.

Moreover, as my dad pointed out, being president of the society just means its your job to delegate tasks, and be a leader. You need to understand your aims, and objectives and lead the committee to achieve your goals. You have a job to do, just as any other committee member. No one person is meant to have more work to do than others. I guess...

So perhaps in the end of the day I might just stick with being the MySA president and give up the welfare officer job to someone else...

(I Hope to god I would not regret posting this...)

non-sensical rambling

You're so predictable.
Who, me?
Yes you.
So what?
It bothers me.
Why's that?
People seem to know you better than I know you.
Thats not true.
You don't know that.
Yes I do.
No you don't.
Forget about it.
I can't.
Why not?
You should know.
Why should I?
I'm you and You're me and we both know you're bothered.
There's so much more to worry about and you're worrying about being predictable.
Which I am.
Yes you are.
So what's your point?
What's YOUR point? you started.
Yes... I did. You confused me.
You confused yourself.
Ah, shut up already.

OMG what have i done???

ITS TEMPORARY
I tried to tell people. No one seems to believe me.
I can't do it next year. I swear I cannot. I've got to juggle pharmacy work experience, my job and most importantly my STUDIES.

but the problem now is.... what made me think we could find someone next year when anyone who shows up at the meeting would be NEW?

what an idiot. never thought of it.

I just thought of someone having to take over for A WHILE so that all our efforts put in the club so far would not go to waste. I mean, we need someone who bothers about the club enough to take care of it while we look for someone new...

On a completely different note...
I think i miss my old template. this one is so BLACK and rather depressing.
I might change back soon...

BOO!!

did i scare you with the BLACKNESS of my blog?? did you think you clicked the wrong button?? :P
BWAHAHAH!!

ok enough with pretend evilness... so lame. =.="

I felt like a change and of all the pre-set ones i like this the most. Especially since the COLOURS are so totally awesome without me having to edit them. (the links are all in purple and pink! and my chatbox green looks so cool!)
I'm loving it :)

plus now i can do hidden texts like what some person sometimes does... :P

seriously.

You'd think after delaying for 5 hours... and spending so much time doing absolutely NOTHING at all, I'd finally come to my senses and start doing something productive.
Yet i'm sitting here, with nothing else except my lit review window open (and now blogspot...), and i still cannot get myself to read and write and finish off another 700 words. its insane. I just can't get myself to DO IT.


8:28pm
bleh.... feel like sleeping. =.=

Selamat Hari Raya!`

I'm so excited. Last year i didnt even know it was raya...
this year i get to go to an open house! yay :) i cant wait for saturday.

The previous year i was actually in Kuantan during raya and it was cool. My work place owner drove me and the pharmacist and Liong (another student working with me) to our colleagues houses were i got to eat yummy malay food and kuih-muih! living in singapore and korea... i've missed a lot of raya's... so that was almost like the first time i went to celebrate raya and remembered it. i think the last time i went raya visiting was when it was gong xi raya... when it happened the same time as CNY.

I remember we went to my dad's friend's house...

and that was AGES ago.



im so antisocial tonight.
and dammit. stomachache... whyyy...