Monday, June 30, 2008

*edited*

bah. i feel like crying. i feel sick.

my neck hurts. I feel like i'm going to have a bad headache soon (its sort of lingering at the back of my head) and i had a headache on saturday night, and yesterday. and now again?? what's wrong with me?? im running out of panadol already. =.="
the panadol does work though. so its just a headache. not a migrain. hmmph.. but why...

bunny- i dont know how you concentrate on studying when your back was hurting...

ugh. sudah tua.

8:25pm: OMG ANOTHER YAKKER. UGH. SHUTUP ALREADY. or GO OUTSIDE TO TALK. you're on a handphone!
and she's sitting directly opposite me in the com pool. i cant even see her face (therefore cannot direct evil stares at her) but whats anoying me most is because shes directly opposite me, her voice is directed towards me. hate her hate her hate her.

Confused

I thought depression is part of PMS.
So why Now? It just ended. I thought this is when I'm supposed to feel most 'normal'. most 'myself'. No stupid hormones running amok in the body.

Maybe the stress is finally getting to me.

But wasn't I already stressed before? I mean, the thought of having to learn analytical chemistry in one day should have been stressful. So why depressed now and not then?

Maybe because my body feels like it has time to shut down. Maybe because the exam is 3 days away, and not tomorrow. Maybe on wednesday night I will no longer feel like this, and i will once again find it terribly easy to absorb any material I read because I HAVE TO. Why can i only work under pressure? This just makes me more of a procrastinator than i already am. And some things you just cannot procrastinate. Some things need time to let sink in. Some things have to be learnt and understood rather than memorised so you cannot just wait until the last minute. But at the moment, my body isn't allowing me to do that. It just won't learn.

I'm completely rambling on now i forgot what my original intention of writing was.

On a side note however, I would like to thank:
Kavi, and especially Conie for helping me on Friday night. I wouldn't have made it through the analyical exam if not for you two.

*hugs*

Darn

I know more than you think I know. But me being who I am- I'm not going to change a thing.

I shouldn't have read that before I started trying to study.
Now I'm no longer in the mood for studying (not that i was ever really in the mood... I just felt like i could study.)

1 more.
1 more friggin paper.
hmmph.

Things to do before Sunday (excluding partying):
- take passport photo
- STUDY LOTS and pass my final paper!
- photocopy passport, and myKad, and birth cert
- find out what there is to do in Canberra
- decide if we should live in the dorm for one night. mum said itll be a good experience...
- do lots of laundry (i already did lots today... you should have seen the pile of clothes i finally decided to fold... :S)
- Email people about the msian carnival fashion show. (we're so screwed. there's no way we can find 3 hours of performances by 3rd august)
- work work work... but that just means i got more to spend during the hols :)

=S

Friday, June 27, 2008

24 hours

I'll be done with 4/5 of my exams.

And only 1 more to go...

Meanwhile, I just need to concentrate on analytical chemistry.

At least it's not as boring as physiology.

By the way, after the physiology exam- i did feel like kicking myself. i KNEW that stuff. i knew i had to know that stuff. every time i looked at the notes, it made so much sense. but i never really closed the notes, and WROTE it out in black and white. Then it came out in the exam. and i understood what i read in my notes- yes. But i couldn't write anything down.

So... after 24 hours...
I'm left with hours of Organic chemistry revision, The Organic Chemistry Exam, about 20 hours of work followed by planning and preparation for my trip to canberra.
THEN IM OFF TO CANBERRA!
And LET THE HOLIDAYS BEGIN. ah i can't wait.

actually, i just wrote that to sound dramatic. holidays really begin on thursday night itself after the organic exam ends :) Wheee!

okok. enough dreaming of holidays.
back to analytical...

Thursday, June 26, 2008

12 more hours

Someone STAB me.

Maccaroni and Cheese

OK. So while the rest of Physiology 200 class is studying their butt off. I decided to blog about making food. Well... we all need to eat right?

So... This is how you make Mum's Maccaroni and Cheese and bacon and onion.

First, you'll need to have the following ingredients:
1) Pasta
2) Milk
3) Bacon
4) Onion
5) Cheddar Cheese
6) Plain Flour
7) Butter
8) Salt and Pepper


So start... you need to boil your pasta, till its all nice and 'al dente' like the pros say...

While your pasta is boiling... chop up some bacon (or ham if you dont have bacon), onion and grate some cheddar cheese (I was too lazy to have to wash a grater, so i just sliced my cheddar cheese thinly)

I was too lazy to wash another plate so i dumped them all on the chopping board...

Then once your pasta is done, pour it out and put it in a bowl, and with the same pot, melt some butter

use about half of that amount... then throw in your onions and bacon.
make sure its on low heat if not you'll end up burning the bottom even before your onion is soft, or bacon nicely cooked- Like i managed to do... =.=
(another option is to use a non-stick pan to cook those two but again, i dont like washing...)
Once thats all cooked and done, take it out, and put it somewhere~
then melt the other half of the butter, and cook it with about 1 teaspoon of Plain Flour:
You'll end up with a clump of yellow flour ball looking thing which looks kind of scary but i unfortunately dont have a picture of that...

Then pour in about 1/3 cup of milk or around there... if you pour more in, its more watery, if too little then its kind of sticky...
mix it in.. and you'll end up with something like this... (no more freaky little yellow flour ball :S)


mine's all brownish cuz the bottom of the pot is brown (remember from just now...?) but i think it adds a bit of flavour :P
After that, you should add in your bacon and onion that you cooked earlier on, and at this stage- taste it and add salt and pepper as you wish.
I was too busy taking pictures i completely forgot to add any salt or pepper. BUT the bacon was salty! so careful dont add too much salt... i added it in at the end... >< so un-pro...

After that, turn off your fire/hotplate/whatever ure using, pour in your pasta, and add in your grated cheddar cheese and MIX MIX MIX MIX MIX....

and....

Ta-Daa!!

Your very own maccaroni (or whatever pasta you used) and Cheese and Bacon and Onion.


Hokai. i think its about time i worry about physiology. i'm surprisingly calm even though i dont know much and the exam is tomorrow and i know i'll be kicking myself after the paper tomorrow for not studying hard enough...

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Procrastinate

verb. to put something off till another day or time; defer; delay.


Definition curtesy of Mjelva who got it off somewhere-no doubt, but I dont know where and im too lazy to go to dictionary.com to get my own definition.

physio is boring. i never thought id say bio is boring but now im saying it- BIOLOGY IS BORING. ah alliteration. see, they're meant for each other.

Chemistry on the other hand is surprisingly fun.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

As the excitement fades...

OK. So I was sitting on my bed happily reading pharmaceutical chemistry (yes... it does get kind of addictive.) and well, you know how some subjects are kind of related (im speaking of Pharmaceutics here) and so my mind wandered a bit and i started thinking about what i wrote for my answers in my pharmaceutics exam...

I came out of the exam feeling happy that its over and pretty proud of myself (I feel proud of myself pretty easily :P) for being able to fill out an answer for every question asked... But I never really thought about exactly WHAT i wrote for the answers.
After doing a bit of thinking i realised how much crap i managed to write in the exam. Because initially i had lots of blank spaces where i scribbled a bunch of nothings on the scrap paper, then decide to leave blank and come back to it later. Which i did and manage to write... a lot.

I just hope the ones that i didn't crap so much about turns out to be correct.

Anyway, the pchem analytical syllabus is pretty small. I don't understand why PH keeps on rushing through the actual TEACHING bit of his job. IF he had cut down the amount of crap stories he tells, and do a bit more teaching, we probably wouldn't be so lost after he ended his series of lectures. And we probably wouldn't have to go in for the 8am tutorial sesssions (which were just as useless as his lectures) and we COULD have even finished his series of lectures a couple of weeks early. Seriously.

Now i just need to get my head around the basics. Like figuring out which ones are acid or base functional groups when looking at a large molecule. yeah. i cant even do that. Imagine me in the pharmaceutics exam looking at the darn QUESTION 1. Ugh. I hated that question.

Monday, June 23, 2008

greys anatomy... on the side...

ok. so that doctor whats her name... Montgomery-
Left the hospital and went to florida or something to get away from everyone.
And guess what?

Now there's a NEW series called 'Private Practice' and its about HER! Greys anatomy came up witha new series with her only... because shes no longer with the rest of the gang. its like...
Friends, and after friends ended, there's Joey- the new series....

Hm. i wonder if it'll be as good as grey's anatomy...
Nah... i guess nothing will be as good as greys anatomy since you can't make ANOTHER series with both McSteamy AND McDreamy in it can you? :)

Sunday, June 22, 2008

OMG shut up already. If they cant hear you then STOP trying to talk. ugh.

online phone calls SHOULD NOT BE ALLOWED IN COMPUTER POOLS.

Especially during exams.

It was nice and SILENT before she showed up.

Everyone was studying. it was good motivation.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

EVERY SEMESTER without fail my brother would be RUSHING about trying to pay his fees the day before his enrolment date.
UGH.
SO STUPID. he's been on holidays for 2 weeks already now! WHY RUSH TO DO IT NOW!? It won't bother me if it had nothing to do with me, but after i spent time transferring money to his account he found out HE CANT PAY with his account so now I have to do all the payments. and ic ant pay it all in one go cuz theres a maximum i cannot exceed.

=.=

disrupted my studying! now im distracted.

*yes any little excuse and im distracted. and my exam is in 33 hours*

Malay!

Its refreshing to hear some malay people speak malay with that informal normal citizen slang... (not like how the perdana menteri speaks on tv....)
I kind of miss it.
And it makes me realise how BAD my malay has become. totally karat-ed :P

Its times like this when you really want to go home. (to kuantan to be specific. love the malay food...)
mainly to run away from exams... but ive been eating so much junk i just want a nice simple home cooked meal.

ok wait, did i just contradict myself? i wanted a simple home cooked meal but i also wanted malay food which is spicy, oily and oh so not comfort home food. but SO GOOD. so i want both. :P

someone loves camwhoring on My phone camera...

yes... this is my... 3rd time updating tonight i think. i DO have better things to do but i dont know why i just cant help myself... ><









Wednesday, June 18, 2008

No wonder so cold...

My window was open.

=.=


random side note: i bought cherries today :)

Pictures from my Phone!

Teddy peek-a-booShe was hiding with Em
Apple art

pretty colours... hand drawing a hand...
too bad the picture's fuzzy- maria sharapova's medicine!
Pictures Conie took from our committee meeting


The old buildings of QEH.

I have a 'canggih' banana too!
Tada!
Sweet potato stack! :)
Colored paraffin with some stuff...
Pretty... looks like candy. :P


Snow in Rundle Mall

I get distracted easily from studying...
Look at all the trees we're killing!
My facebook turned korean...

Sushi train!




some slimy thing...
fire engines outside my apartment. glad i wasnt home when the alarm went off.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

DISCUSSION BOARDS

EDIT 9:10pm 18th June
"new messages" in my inbox are now up to 121!!! all from discussion board posts...

Are clogging up my uni inbox. 63 new messages overnight. Ugh. i hate these people for being so on top of the world on biochem and pharmceutics.

Pharmaceutics Dispensing Test

Conie... IT WAS NOT EASY. But thanks for the heads up.

Would I Fail it?
Unlikely.

Would I Ace it?
Doubtful.

You know you won't do well when you sat there for the first few minutes staring into blank space not knowing what to do or where to start from.
Complete mess. Took me ages to figure out what we're supposed to do.
Even then, I'm not sure if it's right. And I left a blank space... well, i filled it up with crap. i already wrote the same thing elsewhere. i just needed to put something there and i had no time to go look up melting points or something intelligent...

oh well. That's done. Move over...

Biochem oh biochem... here i come. Again.

Vicious cycle

When I'm stressed, I eat.
When I eat, I become fat.
When I become fat, I become depressed.
When I'm depressed I can't concentrate.
When I can't concentrate I can't study.
When I can't study I stress.
When I'm stressed...



... I EAT.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

glucogoblastyourhead

I can't do it. I just can't do it.

maybe i'm in the wrong course. Maybe i should have done something like Geography instead. yea... Ive always kindof liked physical geography... but how do i fill up 4 subjects per semester for 3 or 4 years with only GEOGRAPHY? o.O

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Thoughts 10am- 2pm

Mum was online for a few minutes. Didn't reply my message. Then went offline...

My Chemistry practical booklet is full of stains. Apparently its good to have stains on your book. It shows that you're using it correctly.... or something along those lines. But my book is stained with coffee and sauce... is that good too? They didn't specify what stains...

why why why why why. ugh. you're frustrating.

fine. ignoreme.

ah, mum came back on.

Sometimes i love it. Other times i just want to run away. Today it was good.

My tongue still stings.

Pchem report is growing very slowly... but at least its growing.

Facebook is in KOREAN. maybe it's a sign. maybe i shouldn't be there...

Please someone stab him already

PH doesnt just deserve to die. He deserves to die a horrible painful death.
Tutorials are for people to ask questions you idiot. You don't shoot down students who ask questions in tutorials. Whether it's a silly question or not- The reason we're attending tutorials is because we NEED HELP. And you SUCK at providing any. You SUCK as a lecturer and you SUCK as a tutor. I wonder how you make it in what you do.
Oh one more thing, Just because you're a drug addict doesn't mean the rest of the class is. We're not interested in knowing about marijuana or cocaine so ENOUGH of the illicit drug references already.

Go to hell.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

*smack!*

Good point. it wasnt a weekend. But it felt like it.

Dont know what you're complaining about. I'd be ecstatic. But maybe that's just me. I'm easily happy.

You're funny. thank you. i sometimes dont trust mum though :P

I feel like hiding in a box for a month. And then come out and kill myself cuz I would have failed my semester since i missed everything.

I'm cold. im wearing 2 pairs of socks. Does not help.

I burnt my tongue again. this time- SERIOUSLY burnt. I fried some dumplings for dinner. Inside the dumplings was some water/soupy thing. I didnt expect it to have so much liquid. So i bit it, and *squirt* the water came out- DIRECTLY ON MY TONGUE. this was about a minutes after i took it off the stove. the rest of dinner was painful. Then i realised when im eating something i don't concentrate so much on the pain. So the rest of the night.. *munch munch munch*... ).( [figured out the picture yet? person with cheeks so FAT that eyes can no longer be seen... thats me.]

I might not be able to go to QEH for work this weekend because S wants me to go in pairs with someone. the 3rd yrs cant make it. That sucks.

I need to have a big WAKE UP call and tell my brain to start keeping information it reads. I have 9 days to my first exam. I waste so much time staring at paper with printed words.

PMS is supposed to happen before M right? Funny how time flies when you least want it to. I thought it was only a couple of weeks ago... not according to my calendar though.

PH can die. So can JH. ah they all end with a 'H'...

It's been a long long time

I had fun.
I hope you did too.
I can't believe we used to do this every weekend.

Well, I'm glad some things don't change. :)

Thursday, June 05, 2008

To the procrastinator:

you. stop procrastinating. get off the computer and read something important.

now.

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

i cant believe i forgot to mention.

YOU'RE 21!! :)

Its been ages since my last update...

I wanted to update this thing last night. but blogger was lagging.

there was a guy in the computer pool... when i came in he was listening to 'because of you' by kelly clarkson. i could hear it through his earphones. 30 minutes later he was STILL listening to the same song. over and over and over.....
Then he changed song (THANKFULLY!) but wo and behold... he played that second song (some chinese song...) over... and over... and over... and over again....

then finaly he went out of the room. *Yay*

but 10 minutes later he was BACK. and guess what? he started whistling. you know... that soft... self-whistle kind of sound.

and he whistled like ONE line of some melody. and every couple of minutes he would repeat it over again. and again. and again. OMG I WAS GOING INSANE.

then i left.

and i had that song he was whistling stuck in my head. that SAME line of melody he was whistling repeatedly. and i dont even know what song it was. ugh. some people... wth.