i dont do many posts like this... if im on diary-x it would have been password protected.

After so many times of getting teary eyed and all that about school ending and stuff, i finally cried. But strangely enough, for a completely different reason something almost completely opposite because it made me WANT school and the exams and everything about it to end.

Of all times, he had to choose last night, when he's gonna be spending the next two days at home because its the weekend(o right. and monday too since its a holiday). and what sucks most is that he's partially correct. Honestly tho. i DID try looking for stuff and finding out things but u dont know how HARD it is to find anything on university websites! anyway in the end somehow managed to find something on it when he's there and then he started shouting at me for not knowing anything about anything. and its all so stupid. the whole NUS thing. so apparently its starting in august. i didnt hand in my b2 form to Mary Toh cuz i forgot it on thursday and i thought i would have time anyway and didnt need it. that form is so that my results get sent directly to the universities once they come out. so since i didnt hand it in ill have to send my result to NUS by myself. which is something i was prepared to do until last night. THen again im not THAT keen on going to NUS. k. NUS starts in august. i wont be applying to the 2 other aussi unis until once my IB results are out. but then their term starts in february. so i wont hear from them instantly right?? and if say i DO get accepted by NUS then its not like i have a choice to make yet because i dont know about the aussi universities yet! in a way im hoping i dont get into NUS. to make sure i dont get into NUS i cant do so well in my IB. which is of course an extremely stupid goal. but if i do get accepted thers a high chance ill be stuck here in singapore for the next 7 years AT LEAST. (4 yrs uni, and 3 yr bond) . that sorta sux. and i sometimes see myself trying to find my way around a foreign place already. in australia that is. by myself. cuz its just... exciting. and in a way i really want to go off on my own. anyway. my point is... im stressed about exams and my stupid exam schedule, im feeling extremely guilty for not handing in my b2 form to mary toh, i was working on this (prove RHS=LHS) math question and getting absolutely NO WHERE with it and being extremely frustrated, then he has to come in and ask me about uni and my applications and then blame me for not knowing anything when i have personally talked to the uni people who wont tell me anything! then he goes out saying, "better go sleep early" which makes absolutely no sense at all since it was already about 1am when he came in.

so today, not wanting to spend any time with him, i spent very many hours in the library again (although this time i did so little compared to what ive been doing on other days especially yesterday. i cant concentrate when im pissed off) and managed to escape getting a lift to the library with "the sun's out, i feel like walking" which was actually quite true because the sun does get rid of depression and i like the sun. its not a very long walk anyway. and its 2 bus stops down. i got on the bus listening to one song on my mp3, and the same song was still playing when i stepped offf the bus. the walk from the bus stop to the library however was quite long. but on thursday i actually walked from the library back home and i quite enjoyed it.

tomorrow i wont be in the house again. im getting sick of sitting for hours in the library by myself so instead, im going somewhere to work with amy. somewhere with food and more people. i need to decide what to revise tomorrow tho. i feel like theres so much more to revise. but i think ive pretty much covered everything for bio and math, and geo i need to learn things like statistics and case studies which is a whole lot of memorising, which i tried already, and got memorised, some of them, but i usually forget after a while, so its one of those things i have to learn in the 3 hours i have before going into the first geo exam on tuesday after english paper 1. i need to do the same for biology. ive studied the DNA stuff, muscle and movement stuff, and respiration and photosynthesis stuff (anything with long processes) quite a few times and at times i know them very well off by heart but after a few days i try to write it down on paper from scratch and i have lots of gaps not knowin what enzyme goes where, whats the name of certain things and different number of carbons, getting NAD and NADH mixed up and all that. my brain feels like its overflowing, and all these little bits and bobs keep falling out and getting lost. and it sucks cuz i keep having to go back and look for them in the txtbk and then at the same time, trying to think of that it links to another topic and i realise i dont remmber that as well! and its all very frustrating. and my math tutor wont come tomorrow because he 'cant make it' i dont know WHY. so he's coming on monday morning instead which is a bit last minute! agh. damn him. he gets on my nerves so much sometmes. i hope tomorrow is the last time ill see him ever again. since he doesnt know much about binary operations, sets and groups anyway, for my p3 exam.

so if uve read the entire thing (and i thank you for that) then u could probably see why i finally had a breakdown. The last time that happened was before mocks. mocks was pretty stressful too. since my first exams in grd 11 was pretty crap. i managed to improve a lot, so that was very motivating. but now that motivation is sorta fading especially with the thought of going to NUS if i miraculously do very well.

dont tell me its silly. i know.

jie/hl, if u read this, dont u dare breathe a word to mum or pa or i will personally strangle you when u get back. i guess i should get rid of my blog address on msn...

i'll get over the frustration and anger at(?) him after a while.
or so we hope.

btw, if u have to look good the next day for some reason, crying yourself to sleep the night before is not a good idea. unless u desperately want a double(for those who dont have) or even triple eyelid.....

goodnight.

exam exam exam exam...

ive been reading lots of blogs with interesting things but guess what? i have nothing interesting to say. so instead ill be complaining about exams.

Revision isnt going as well as planned. im STILL behind schedule. its scary how much we've learnt over the past 2 years. and to have to remember everything for an exam where less than half of everything we've learnt will come up just sucks. o ya, i was looking thru my bio notes from GCSE cuz i remember having a really good diagram in there i could learn for IB... instead of their complex diagrams in the txtbk cuz its the same thing anyway. so i got out my bio folder from GCSE and i just realised how litttle we had to know! my entire gcse bio folder is less than half of whati have for IB. for gcse i had one folder. now i have 2. and they're over the top full... ok. i guess if i organised my notes a bit id have a bit less but most things in ther are very useful!

this is my exam schedule...

Week1
Tuesday: english SL 1h30m, geo HL P1 1h30m Total:3h
Wednesday: GeoHLP2 2h30m, mathHLP1 2h Total:4h30m
Thursday:MathHLP2 2h, BioHLP1&2 3h15m Total: 5h15m (DIE! *cry*)
Friday: BioHLP3 1h15m

Week2
Monday: EnglishSLp2 1h30m
Friday: FrenchSL p1&2 3h

Week 3
Monday: MathHL p3 1h
Thursday: ChemSL p1&2 2h
Friday: ChemSLp3 1h

ok so it gets A LOT better in week 2 and 3, but i dont get how the IBO managed to get all my higher level subjects on the first week. ITS NOT FAIR!

maybe i should go and stop complaining. im sure lots of you hvae heard enough.
bye.

graduation is in one month...

more pictures

Instead of posting everything on the blog, i decided, or rather mjelva decided i should get a webshots thing.. which is what i did. so here are the rest of the pictures:
http://community.webshots.com/user/enarual

yea it proved quite useful since its easy to use and takes little time to upload.

enjoy. :)

oh, and thanks sheila for the pictures u sent.

-laurane

So this is it.

Our last day of school.
We had the awards assembly today. Us grd 12's are on the bleachers! it was quite fun to watch the rest of the school squish uncomfortably on the floor... :) after all, i have done that for 3 years. (then again there are people in my grade who's been here since grade 4, so they must have been more satisfied than me!) After the assembly, we had our final tutor group session where we finally got our Footprints book. then we had our own grd 12 assembly, and we watched this video made by some people.. there was a videogame fight sorta thing (think streetfighter!) that they did which was really good! and funny. :) and stuff... then we had a barbeque at labrador park, west coast. and it was all good and fun. haha.
so anyway... my camera sort of died after monday*cry*... so here are some pictures from Rockstar Day (monday). and as soon as i get pictures off people for the other days i will post them up!


katriona, me and jasmin

dom as Billie Joe (Greenday) and me


me, maya, rachel


sheila and i


the village people :) (jason, stefan, arnout, mjelva, adam) did i get the names right?


wanda, amy, me


me and swati looking uber cool


the girls


yj, cinnie, lyn, maya

jo and i


oystein (not sure dressed up as who...)




helen, aashima and ritz


me and melissa (as blondie)


Dudley (as Kiss band member)

so. like i said, my attempts to dress up sorta failed, but it got better over the next 2 days so u need to wait for pictures.
hope you liked the rockstars! next set of pictures will bring to you people like mahatma ghandi, victorian maids, and chinese zombies. haha

-laurane

first day of our last week

SO today was pretty interesting. no pictures yet cuz ive spent enough time not doing schoolwork today. :) so ill post them later. btw time was spent on getting my cartoon day outfit ready. ;)

Some people came to school looking completely insane. it was very cool. i attempted to 'dress up' but it sorta didnt work very well. haha. o WELL. at least i had something right? ^^

Someone dumped manure around the humanities block today. i dont know exactly what they did, but i know that it stinked. i had geo first thing in the morning. i think it was a very STUPID idea. 1- its NOT funny. 2- poor estate women have to clear it up! 3- people (in ALL grades includins us) who are studying at the humanities block will have to endure the smell (imagine the teachers there!)
So during lunch, all the grd 12s were called to the main hall to receive a lecture from Di Smart who was extremely pissed off (duh..) and warned us if anyone does anything else, the entire leavers week dressingup will be called off, and no more barbecue. or whatever else that we got to do. Oh, and apparently someone drew something on the field too. which would apparently take about 2 weeks to get off the field...

Today i had my LAST BIO CLASS! its very sad since bio is the only subject in school i can say i LIKE. Nisha made this card and we all signed it, and Anne baked a little cake (it tasted very good and it was very cute cuz its so small). So last bio class did feel like a last lesson. and we got a class photo too.
Grace and i were rejoicing about having our last english lesson too. but unfortunately in the middle of class we came up with a revision session on monday 10:10am next week. He sorta expects us all to be there since we said we wanted a revision session. So ill be going to english on monday 10:10am. So that would be our last english class. As much as i hate english as a subject, i do like my english class. Today Brigitte decided to change all of Mr Bev's little green toy soldiers on the notice board to pink ones. Then she left some green ones on mr bev's table lying down *dead* and the pink ones standing up. i thought it was very cute. haha. anyway.. mr bev came in and yeah.. he was a bit like.. wth happened? so anyway. he brought us cake which was VERY good cuz i think it came from secret recipe. haha.
so today i had cake in bio and english.

Its strange how i can end up writing so much sometimes...

*currently obsessesed with "No Reason" by Sum41. i think its just the melody of the chorus that i like...*

2 more real schooldays.
its funny... when i was counting with 20+ days before... it sounded pretty close already and was like"WHOA WE'RE LEAVING SCHOOL IN 20+ days!" but now that we have 2 omre days its like "what? o. yeah were leaving."

its not gone

my flooble box (as HL calls it) or better known as a chatterbox or shoutbox (to me) is not gone. its at the bottom of the page. if it doesnt open, then click refresh, it should be there. :)

tomorrow's rockstar day. i'll be posting many pictures very soon...

3 more schooldays + 1 day for assembly and BBQ!

last thursday and a random thought

Today is our last schoolday in uniform. The next time i go to school in uniform will be for exams. After that, i'll never have to wear school uniform again! ever!
so next week is a bit of a problem. I thought that rockstar day would be easy, but now im sorta stuck with no ideas of how i should dress up. i got history day (sort of) sorted and cartoon day. why does rockstar have to be on MONDAY!? worse to worse i'll go avril. O.O i dont want to do that. then again avril isnt exactly rock is she?

So. Usually on thursdays i have period 7-8 free. for the past few weeks Swati and I have been going out for lunch cuz we can take our time eating and wont be late for class. Today we went to Subway in HollandV. i had a Map Skills class(for geo options) during lunch so they sorta had to wait for me (even tho i said they could go first and ill meet them there later!) i felt bad that they had to wait till lunch time was OVER before going out for lunch. Since today dom has a free as well, he joined us. and mjelva came too cuz he usually has a free anyway. I managed to get some pictures before i went to geo. This is us in our very cool leavers sweaters :) mine say Enarual at the back. i should have got a picture of our backs! i wanted to do that. i sorta forgot.





Here's a picture of our bus ride from school to HV:


Anyway... our last lunch was fun (excluding the fact that this time i was attacked by certain people who have an obesssion with poking noses! and chins in swati's case. i mean she was poked too. shes not the attacker.) lunch outside of school is always fun esp with fun people! :) i dont understand why it took us so long to start going out for lunches. swati and i have had the same free since grade 11! and for the entire year we stayed at school and had sodexho food. i guess its only towards the end of the year that we start getting sick of school food...??

* * * * * * * * * * *
Ok this is pretty random. I was doing something that day and somehow thought of my old primary schools. We had this thing called 'tugas' or 'duty' in english. i dont really remember whether its during break or after school or something, but everyday, some students will have to clean up the classroom. and then the pengawas/prefects(me! for half a year :P) will go around every classroom and give a score under different categories (eg. whiteboard, floor, corridor etc.) for how clean the classroom is. then at the end of the week the cleanest classroom(highest score) will get acknowledgement. haha. :)
and now in this school we dont even have to bother with it cuz during lunch and after school the estate ppl will come around and clean up the classroom.. and every lunch they go around clearing up after studends who cant bother to put their plates away on the trolleys or throw away a paper plate when the bin is about 5 steps away. i dont see how hard that is.
oh and the teachers are another problem. di smart once walked by, and picked up a paper cup or something from the floor. She then came over to our table and asked us to throw it away in the bin. then she walked off, past the rubbish bin. HELLO?? if she's walking past the bin, why cant she just throw it in the bin? the bin was closer than our table from where she piked up the cup. i might have rambled on about this before probably in my old blog. haha. but hey, it really does annoy me so nobody can stop me!

so anywya. i think thats enough procrastinating. im going off to do a bit of revision before i go to bed or come back online again.

little dreams and little surprises

i had an audition today without knowing i was going to an audition... until i entered the room. its for performing at the graduation dinner. i dont know how many people are going to play something. but they were looking for people to play either when people are hanging around taking photos(outside? something like that...) or to play on stage.
well... right now they want us to play on STAGE! OMG. die. ok. i cant deny, it feels pretty good that after listening to us they want to put us on stage (whatever the reason is.. maybe cuz they need someone there or something) haha. but i wasnt expecting to play on stage. So now apparently i will be singing as well. o_O the only time ive sang in front of people with a mic is during karaoke. therefore the biggest audience ive had is like... um... dono around 20 max?( at pa's CNY reunion dinner) and that was when no one was really listening anyway.
graduation will include students, teachers and parents. (thankfully) not all parents are going, and not all students are going either. but that still means there will be at least 300 people (if all the students are going we have about 270+? something like that) so with teachers and parents.. >< that would make like.. more than 600 eyes and ears!!
so anyway. this might just be my last performance. i think. what are the chances of me performing once im in university, rite? plus, after uni ill be doing pharmacy (or i hope to!) and will not have time for random performances? furthermore, once you get to a certain age, i think people expect you to be very good at what you do.
then again imight be wrong cuz i thought the last concert with symphonic band would be the last. and then this thing came up and yeah. :) thanks swati!

its amazing how extreme mood swings can be. today i just feel extremely crappy. there is 1 reason for that, but that only came up halfway through the day and therefore does not explain my loss of appetite and depression in the morning and that sorta lasted the entire day. when i say loss of appetite i mean, loss of appetite for proper food. I've been stuffing myself with Frozz candy and Horlicks malties.

im surprised at how little i can do even when im locked in a room with nothing to do but my math questions and some paper. ive done an amazing total of 7 questions since i got back from school! =.= lots of time spent falling asleep, staring in to blank space, and doodling.

anyway... just wanna say thanks to ritz, cinnie, michelle, han, and Pong for the prezzies today.
and the many bday wishes and to ppl at the benches for singing happy birthday very loudly (especially swati!) and dom who told (almost?) everyone in bio class that it was my birthday. :)

should go back to math.

i hate that word. The M word. *shudder*

goodnight

-lhs

k. giganternormous photo update! well not really.. about 9 pix i think.
sorry a bit blur but the ohter pic.. ritika and azu wrent looking at the cam. yj lousy photographer! haha...


swati and sheila


steph and jae


yj and steph


mjelva, dom and adam


andeline, amy, and su


haha i like this pic.. i was trying to get a 'normal' pic but um..yeah. result= this pic.


ah sheila and ritz kinda hidden... dom and adam so tall!


ppl sitting around while i open my presents! *whee* haha. see the mineral water box in the middle... dom, mjelva and adam got me that. it had a big rock and sum small ones, a bottle of vodka filled with water, sum flyers from orchard road, moisturiser from different hotels, fruits in a subway bag, and a nice card. how thoughtful. haha. so anyway, later they gave me an mp3 speaker which was totally awesome (omg that sounds so.. eh... ) but it was! and i luv it very much so thank u guys very much!!
so i got a lipgloss(stitch who also got me a pencil with a dolphin thingie! haha), handbags (amy+steph), earrings(from a few ppl~), a cow/pig thing(wanda who also got me other stuff) which i like to call 'pow' but sum ppl think it should be 'copig'. or something, candle thingie (swati), a watch(su, lyn, jae), a keychain watch thing (yj) so very sorry if i miss out anyone! ><
oh my dad got me Britney perfume!

thanks to amy who came early to help. and jae who had to help cuz she was here early. haha.

so swati and i did our performance. haha. i thin kthe first song was too long. and it hin kwe need a lot of practice. but anyawy. it was fun. sorry if ppl got a bit bored listening to us :P

agh.
i feel pretty crap right now. i cant concentrate on anything. i tried to start my english essay. my printer isnt working (again. that stupid thing... if angin baik then itll work if not then it wont.=_=) so i cant print out the question. i need to have it printed out so i can annotate it properly. now i either do it on the computer (which means i put comments, which is time consuming, or i dont annotate at all. which is kinda dumb...) or i handwrite it out. so i chose a poem and wrote it out. and started annotating it. and realised i have no idea what to say about it. and im so sick of english i'm just gonna do something else now and continue with my essay tonight when i have no other choice and MUST do it. then i can probably come up with something.
mr price sent us more questions. joy.
so anyway. this morning i woke up at 12:30. i havent woken up so late for a v long time. i think. so for the entire day ive been feeling kinda crappy and tired and blah...
yea. since amy had to leave early last night i decided to call her up and talk a bit and then her phone was all weird so she couldnt hear me so we finished the conversation on msn.
id like to write more aobut my party last night but im not in the mood for that so yea. someitme later. which may be too late already so maybe i wont write about it at all.

when im in a crappy mood or too ecstatically happy, i thend to have a lot more blog entries.

I NEED TO WORK ON SOMETHING!!

o ya. and to make matters worse, my uncle and cousins frm JB are coming over tomorrow. not that i dont want them over. i like them. but im on a pretty tight schedule and im already having problems concentrating! so... i dont know.
i think i need to make little pieces of paper with either Bio or Math or Geo written on each and pick one up at random and do whatever it says on it.

nah. i wont. i dont feel like doing math nor geo. so its bio again. i still have a lot to do esp after mr price's emails.

bye

The party's over and it was GOOD.
im a bit sleepy now. waiting for my bro to come out of the shower then I have to shower.
thank you everyone for coming and the presents and everything!!!!
i had fun.

picture update coming up. probably tomorrow. but it really shouldnt be up by tmrw. cuz i should be working.
and i still havent finished clearing up the house. >< lots of work to dooo....
and thanks to my bro who helped bbq everything and cleared up stuff
and thanks to mum who made the cake and got everything ready
and thanks to pa for help clearing up even tho he only got home at 11pm or so~ and the perfume.
not that they come to my blog... but yeah. :) worth mentioning.

goodnight

-lhs

whee my math tuition was cut short today cuz i ran out of questions to ask. thats cuz i havent done enough work to ask questions-.- . i did 5h30m of math on wednesday!on tuesday i did nothing. and today i did nothing too. except for tuition which was cut short by 45 mins. conclusion? I need to study so much more!! which means i cant stay home cuz the only time i REALLY study is when im at the library. yah. on wednesday i met up with sheila at 11 at the library@orchard. (uh that wasnt suposed to be underlined and blue. whys that blue!?) anyway... then we had lunch at 1 and sheila went to the doc and then home cuz she didnt feel so well (ure ok now rite stitch? ill see u tmrw anyway... ) um yeah. and then at 2 i took the bus down to the natl library again for the 3rd time this hols, and went home at around 6:20. so yeah. thats my work for the week! seriously. for the entire week. o.O i spent the entire time in the library doing MATH. it was insane. i didnt get very much done. not that i wasnt concentrating. im just SLOW in maths. im so gonna fail. :'(
anyway. by the end of this week (by monday) im gonna have to have finished 2 english essays, a lot of practice math papers, and all the bio questions that Mr price was so kind to email to us ><. and i need to get started on geo! i havent started! at all!! ok. i scanned through my notes about volcanoes earthquakes etc that stuff. but that was about it. and considering the notes are all from Mireille... i dont have very much and they're not very useful. yeah. and i have um... 3 days to get all of that done. am i dead? or very dead?
o yeah and tomorrow im having my party! (therefore even less time to finish all that!)
anyawy. Jae will come to my house earlier to do bio with me. then later tmrw amy will come and with jae since she's already here... we're gonna help my mum to get stuff ready for the bbq. so.. right now i think about 16 people are coming. whee! :) haha. i went grocery shopping with mummy today. i really dont kow how much drinks, food, and everything to buy ><. i should have more parties so i know how much to buy and stuff! haha! kidding. too much work :P but i guess we could have parties for fun after graduation (which is on wednesday,24th of May!) :) ah cant wait.

ive been reading thru my cousin's blog and seems like she's having exams too. everyones having exams! so i guess i shold be more motivated to study ya? ...

um yeah. its 1:08am. i should be going to bed. i think im gonna read some bio before i sleep tho. at least i wont feel so bad. or at least illl read my english play.im halfway through Antigone. thats sorta short. i could finish that. i mean, i slept at 3:30 last night and got up at 10.? i think. yah. and im okay. im still awake. eh wait.i think i slept this afternoon. haha. omg now im just rambling on about NOTHING. sorry.
yea maybe ishould get some sleep. haha. and tmrw will come even faster! wheee! :)

i should use more paragraphs i think. the entire first part is just all SQUISHED together. (: inverted smiley!
i should shutup now and go.
goodnight

-huishien
agh the html keeps messing up! so yeah its alreasy 1:25 and im still here cuz im fixing my entry... =.=

I know its very very late and i should be sleeeping. but i havent blogged in a while, and i got a few pictures i feel like posting.
i just got home from Penang. plane landed at around 10:30pm. went there for cheng beng. something i don't remember doing before. so anyway. we got there on friday night. got up on saturday morning at 6 to go to the first graveyard. its a pretty amazing sight. So many colors and people at the graveyard. :) and there were so many people around...

So anyway. what we did there was... went there cleared up all the weeds and plants growing on it, then placed out food etc and yellow and white papers all over the grave and then we prayed and waited till they 'finish eating' the food (indicated by coins- when you throw 2 coins and if both lands open on the same side then they're finished. or something like that. i'm not sure how it really works...) and then when they're done we clear up the food and we're done.

all cleared after some hard work :)

mum said that's the guard house to guard the grave :)
Pa wanted me to go to the second place on saturday but i managed to get away from going there. we had to buy presents for cousins (xing and jian) for their birthday dinner that night. so i got to go shopping instead! (yay! and on that day i saw this perfect shoes for my grad at Vincci. but it didnt fit very well. so sad! i'll need to find something in singpore i guess) but anyway. here's a pic of the place i didnt go to. its my great-great-great-grandfather's if im not wrong. thats what my bro said anyway. and he went so he should know better.


on sun night we went for steamboat for my ah ma's birthday.

me and some of my cousins excited over food. haha.

and this is my fishball: me, being the eldest cousin setting a 'very good' example by playing with my food...

finally...
here are some pictures from my last concert with symphonic band sometime ago. i never posted pictures. sorta forgot.




sorry for the bad quality... thats cuz i hate using the flash since everyone turns out so white and not nice. o.O
i wonder when i'll get to play in another band... or if i'll have the chance at all!

now i should get some sleep so i can work on math tomorrow. :(
goodnight