Thursday, November 20, 2008

Still alive

I hate that feeling. I was sitting in the exam hall and it kept on happening. Strange tingly nerves run up over your body and move straight to your face and your head. Everything just goes really hot and your brain freezes. You see the words but you're not reading. You might know what it's asking for and you might actually know the answer but at that moment, you can't do anything. You just stare at that paper and go SHIT I'm stuck. Again.

It's a vicious cycle.
You don't know what you're doing, so you freak out and you get a brain freeze. Because you get a brain freeze, you can't think. So you don't know what you're doing. Question after question you read but you move on leaving a blank space. next question. dunno, blank. next question. blank. question. blank. Before you know it you've reached the end of the exam paper and you've left half of it BLANK. Time to go back and think and DO them. But because you've left so many blanks, you panic and your brain loses the ability to think....

It's worse than exam nightmares.

It's Real.

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I still feel like a world class idiot.
Yes, not just simply any idiot, but a Super World Class one. I'm pro.

I've got my reasons. Notice- plural.

4 comments:

Yau said...

U have mental block? do breathing and relax... and it happened to me before years ago... i went blank and mental block... i asked to be excuse outside for few minutes, get fresh air and relax... n breath....try not to think at all... as the more worried you get, the more blank you will get... well in others forget it for a while, calm down, n relax and breath... and hopefully all come back... as when u panic... u kind of breathe heavily and that not good for circulation of blood to brain etc... too much oxygen n CO2 that was not exchanged properly.... and hence... jadi macam berserabut....

Yau said...

sorry my writing was bad hahaha...it was supposed to be "well in other words...." ok... and good luck ya!

Laurane said...

Thanks yau. brain was seriously berserabut. I had one mental block. luckily it unblocked though...
But the others i was just clueless... :S
and i got so scared because I had a vision of me having to stay back another year because i failed. maybe ill get a S then ill just study and pass that one and i'll be fine...

Yau said...

Just be ok and relax... n dont be negative ok!!! U b fine!!