its a horrible feeling when you've found something to hold on to forever when suddenly a little thing brings you so close to losing it. it's frightening. never ever ever do i want it to happen again. but some things need to happen to make it stronger.
I learnt how to fry dumplings today. Didn't quite work out the way i wanted it to when i tried, but could have been worse.
Manager shouted at us last night. i wanted to retort(i had reasons for whatver she was complaining about) but im not the kind of person who shouts back at a senior. i wasn't in the mood to talk much anywy. I didn't say much to anyone last night.
Yesterday was a crap day.
i hate it when i put in so much time and effort into something and realise in the end of the day what you did does not matter. what you did does not count. what you did doesn't help with anything. what you did was a complete waste of time. i hate how they assume we know so much in pharmaceutics. they assume we know what to look for, they assume we know how to interpret what we read, they assume we have so much free time to look things up and even go to the pharmacy to see what other products are available. what the hell...
i also hate how i do things that i know isnt good for me. eating so much crap. sleeping at stupid hours. staring at the tv screen for hours when i have so much work to do. i know i shouldn't be wasting so much time because there is no time to waste. but i do anywya. and for that i hate myself. i know i've been putting on weight ever since uni started i know that from the scales and from the MIRROR. but i eat anyway. because i see food that i like, and i buy. and when i buy, i have it at home, and i see it, when i see it, i open, when i open i eat. and i don't stop.
this is another thing i'm doing to waste time. i'm so glad in a way that tomorrow's clinical pharmacy work at QEH is cancelled. if not i wont have any time to study this weekend- since now im spending my 4 hours of 'study time' watching greys anatomy, going on facebook, replying emails, and blogging.
dammit.i better get off blogspot right now.
what a mushed up blog entry. a bit like mashed potatoes with finely chopped mushrooms and bacon. except it doesn't taste as good.
ugh. enough about food. =.=
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6 comments:
sorry... I cant really console you now,I lost every sanity in me to say rasional stuff >< as my grp member just got on my nerves again!!!!
haha. no worries.
thanks for not teaching me here :P "t"!!!
i like reading your blog. gives me something to do. especially when i'm too busy to blog myself. heheh...
one note of advice: resist buying junk food then you wont have to go through step 2:opening the packet and step 3: eating.
as for work, managers are born to be suckers. forget it. think about how blessed you are to have a job and have income... and you can go shopping without guilt.
yeah. if its any consolation to you, i just ate so much timtams i feel sick. btw, they're on sale again in wollies this week. NOT that you're going to go buy any.
awww poor lilo. well, whenever i have a crap day, i force myself to focus on all my blessings and to just see it as another little blip on a much wider, broader horizon (that is adorned with a rainbow).
i meant wider, BRIGHTER horizon hahaha
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