I just finished my bio practical test and im feeling a little bit more... calm. (it actually wasn't too bad, but there were a number of things im worried about)
I'm still a bit excited though. Next class is our last dispensing tutorial and the last chance i get to make sure i know how to make labels correctly. kind of silly how something as simple as making a label can be so.... i cant think of the word for it... bah. whatever.

I actually really like this semester's biology. not that i know everythign about it, i assume i know more than half of what i've been taught this sem, but i haven't actually gone through my notes and the textbooks so i have TONS to study before the exam in 2 weeks time, (OMG ITS IN 2 WEEKS!!) and on top of that i need to learn my chemistry.(and pharmaceutics and stats but im not too worried about that now....) in chem- everything's NEW. agh.
but guess what, next year EVERYTHING in EVERY SUBJECT is NEW.

la la la...

i got emails to reply.

=S

INTERVIEWS ARE SO NERVE WRECKING!!!!!!!

First of all, i wasn't expecting something so formal. i thought it was just a casual, walk-in talk thing just so they know who i am.

Then the chairs she made me sit on... omg its like one of those beach chairs where thers a metal rim around the whole thing, and the seat and back support is a canvas cloth thingie. I was trying to sit and still look poised (??) in it but its difficult.

And she asked questions i had no idea how to answer...

And then finding out at the end of the interview that there's about 14 applicants in total doesn't make me feel any better.

And now over an hour after that interview i realised theres a lot of things i could have said that i didnt say and a lot of things i shouldn't have said that i said
and ahhhh its all so silly.

The thing is, now i think about it, i dont think that's my first interview. (i thought it was... cuz i forgot about the first) i had one when i applied for Guardian in Singapore. but that was easy. I think they were actually short on staff. so i would get the job no matter what.

oh well. i have a bio practical test in about 15 mins, so i should get going.

*Free my mind... empty my head... THINK BIO. not jobs and interviews. yes. bio. biobiobiobiobiobiobio.... *

Market day turned out to be more interesting than usual...

Went to the market today as usual...
There was a solar powered cars exhibition (or whatever it was) sort of thing at victoria square (where the bus stop was). So since we had about 15mins wait for the bus to come, we (me and my brother) took a walk around. I felt kind of sorry for them today though. It's the Gloomiest day i've seen in adelaide... of all days to have a solar powered cars thing... :S oh well, at least the cars still moved. (some didnt... but thats possibly just because their car is lousy. haha)

Competition for little solar powered cars.
Nice Green car :) No idea why that's there though. i dont see how that's solar powered... :S
Nice silver car... (also dont see how its solar powered...)
I think this was the one on tv... or maybe it wasnt. they all look the same :S anyway. i wonder how you get into that car...

this one looks cool. :)

There are a few more pictures but im lazy so im not putting them up. :) im sure you ppl dont mind anyway, since me posting up SOME pictures is good enough right??? :D

Anyway, being completely random now...
I had a cup of milo, coffee and tea today. i never drink so many 'breakfast drinks' in one day. kind of weird. anyway, then i had like, lots of bread for brunch.
so lazy.
anyway, im cooking fried bee hoon for dinner. so im not THAT Lazy after all. better than my brother.

random pictures

This is me with curly hair and pyjamas. and looking a bit fat. the hair's not permanent. im not sure about the fat though... =SThis us us working on our group assignment, with lots of food, and looking very pro with a laptop each. behind the camera :)
Strawberries! they're yummy and pretty affordable now :)

Conie has a massive hand. kidding. its an oven glove. (yes im being lame. conie please dont kill me. its a cute pic.) thats conie's lab partner.

This is my chesmitry lab partner Jessica I found this in the lab where we did gas chromatography. isnt it the cutest little glass bottle? :)

Since i mentoned gas chromatography, this is the machine. We used needles which would inject like... 0.02mls of stuff into copper wires in that machine at like.. 200deg C or something. i dont quite remember what.... but it was a long boring prac whichi didnt get full marks on. i believe it wasnt our fault. the machine was faulty. ALL our values were slightly lower than what it should be. doesnt that mean something??? we repeated it a few times and it was constant, but low constant. silly silly experiment.

chemicals chemicals... chemistry is cool this way. we used to use like 0.1M acid at school. now we get to use a lot more concentrated stuff. :) (i know, im a bit of a geek...)

This is us posing at City East campus at 1am after a night of work at uni. L to R: conie, alwyn, me, ben.

Chocolate pancakes with ice cream and nutella (because there was no chocolate to melt...) looks good? that was breakfast. inspired by supper the night before at the pancake house. i cant figure out how to make very fluffy pancakes. maybe its baking soda im lacking... i need to get some.

We are trees.

Can they get any cuter? :)

More fluffy cutesys with the mummy (or daddy) swan.

Torrens river is pretty.
Torrens river was also crowded. There was an australian food and wine festival or something like that...

The end of pictures. hope you enjoyed the show. i will have another picture update some other time. i love my new (but sadly, very unfortunate and battered because i keep dropping it) phone. the pictures here are all from my phone camera :)

Eeek.

A bit late now, but i'm halfway through revision for a test tomorrow and i realised i might have made quite a LOT of mistakes for my stats assignment! I just assumed im always right cuz well its friggin STATS. cant go so wrong. but i was just reading through some notes and i really think i messed up something. more than something. a few things. =S

stupid...... >< see, you shouldn't be lazy. it doesn't pay.

k. back to study.

Hi.

It’s one of those blog entries where you’d have no idea what I’m on about. And if you think you know, well- You’re wrong. :P

OK. So there’s a question that a friend of mine asked me a few days ago. Probably a week or so ago. At that time I didn’t know what to answer because well… one of the reasons was because I really didn’t know. But now I think I know the answer to that and it’s unfortunately rather depressing. Funnily enough I’m not that distracted by it. Maybe because its been extremely busy at uni and all that. Oh well. Another time :)

You're not trying hard enough.


Thats it with the incomprehensible part... back to normal blogging that makes some sense~(is this small? cuz its NOT supposed to be small. it looks normal sized here but when i 'publish post' it turns out small. tell me its not small...)

By the way, I’m procrastinating (duh…) . Because I have work. Why else would I procrastinate?
It’s gonna be a busy busy week. And the weeks ahead will be just as busy. All the way until the end of exams…….. ah im so scared!

I can’t wait to go home. Unfortunately that will only be a month after my last exam. Hopefully I find something to do for that month. I NEED TO GET A JOB(work experience)! If not I’m dead and ill be kicking myself for not going home sooner.

*breathe*

Ill be fine.

Love. For Music.

Or mainly just my piano and classical pieces. Not the weird contemporary pieces they usually make us play for the ‘C’ pieces in an exam.

I turned on music from the examination songs CD today and instead of just letting it play in the background like I usually do with other music, I put on my earphones and sat down and actually listened to it. In the freakiest way, all of a sudden my heart started racing and I got the Goosebumps. I imagined myself on the piano playing the pieces, and just like I was on the piano my mind wandered off and I was in a state of complete relaxation…

One of the pieces I did for my exam was by Scarlatti and when that piece was playing on itunes, my mind wandered to my piano teacher’s house as we went through that song over and over again, trying to get my touch, tempo and dynamics right. I remember playing it over and over again at home trying to remember exactly what it was my teacher wanted me to do. I realized then how much I miss my piano back home and how I wished I had a piano here right now. I miss the piano so much I feel like crying. I’m not the greatest pianist on earth, and I can’t play as well as the recordings I’m listening to, but being able to sit at the piano, and tinkle a little something (whether correctly or wrongly) and open any music score and be able to play a few notes from every piece is just a really good feeling. I feel sorry for people who are missing out on it. I feel so fortunate that I was able to do that every single day. No matter how much I am concentrating on a piece to make sure I get everything about it correct, being on the piano always lets my mind wander off, and it’s the perfect way to relax. Of course not many people know that it’s completely relaxing and after that I usually pretend I’m tired and need a rest before actually going on to do some schoolwork. :) (mum doesn’t know…)

I can’t wait to get home. But um… where is my piano anyway? With all the moving of stuff I’m not sure where it is… need to make a mental note to ask mum where it is!

The closest thing I have to a piano now is a computer keyboard. Which is NO WHERE NEAR!

see, it makes people happy. we're all smiling! :) and thats my beloved piano

“Who Am I?”

This is a question I posted on ‘Facebook’ just a while ago.
So far I’ve received two answers, and both said – Laurane. If that’s not you, who are you?
Well, it’s pretty obvious that I’m Laurane. But who exactly is she?
- a person
- a sister
- a daughter
- a teenager
- a student
- a Malaysian
- a Chinese
- a complex organic compound??
But is that all that defines who someone is? I am Laurane. I am all that I have mentioned above, but what makes me different from other people, sisters, daughters, teenagers, students etc.?
Who do people perceive me as?
- A stubborn person?
- A caring person?
- A good friend?
- A bad friend?
- A sensitive person?
- Someone who tries too hard?
- Someone who wants to be everything?
The possibilities are endless.
So who am I? If I cannot answer this question myself, how can others?

Here’s who I think I am.
I think I am considerate, I care for my friends and family, I’m logical, friendly to most people, easy to get along with, positive, a bit messy and a bit unorganized but I know where things are. I am proud of my achievements. I work hard when I need to, I have fun when I can.

But I’m not all that great. I think I need to work on being more understanding. I think I can be a better friend. I sometimes talk too much or in other situations, talk too little. I am sometimes too straightforward and I hurt other people without knowing and I sometimes (but very rarely) hurt people on purpose and don’t feel bad about it. I sometimes judge others before knowing who they really are. I am easily influenced by some things. I’m sometimes very boring- I don’t joke around about silly things for too long. I sometimes take things too seriously. I am quite stubborn, I hate being wrong and I can be quite big-headed at times.

At the end of the day, we are all human and there’s good and bad in everyone. I try to be someone that everyone can get along with but I know that is not possible. So for the time being, I am just being myself and like it or not this is who I am. :)