Merdeka Dinner and stuff.

I think i've had enough depressing blog entries.
Saturday night was a dinner to celebrate Malaysia's 50 years of Merdeka!
For the past month we've been rehearsing for that night, so we all hoped it would go well. It wasnt brilliant, but it could have been worse. all in all, we had great fun and food was good although it reminded me of grad dinner agian where i had to grab some food, stuff some food down, then go on stage, then come back and stuff more (cold) food down my throat. But i guess it could have been worse.
Took loads of pictures. They will be on facebook SOON. im currently at uni and it wont let me upload pictures on facebook like we usually do - the entire album. i need to upload them ONE BY ONE on this computer cuz it needs upgrading. =.=

If anyone wants to see pictures immediately, I'm sure Conie has some on her blog. check out my links...

I'll post ONE picture just to be nice:

That's almost all of us (Desmond isnt there...) in our modern dance costume. Clockwise starting from me: me!:), cindy, elaine, shereen (3 sisters), conie, yin lu, margaret and center- Ram.

Since ive been spending my weekends rehearsing, and with everything that has happened in the past couple of weeks, i havent been able to concentrate much on my work. SO its about time i start catching up with my studies. I am WAY behind and i got 3 tests next week. i think i;'m only going to really prepare for ONE out of the 3. because 1 of them doesnt count, and the other one shouldnt be too difficult. Chem. agh. why am i doing pharmacy? is it too late to quit? or too early to give up?

Never really gone

Grandma passed away on the night of the 1st of September. Tomorrow's her cremation. I don't know if i want to be there for it, but whether i want to or not, i dont have a choice. I'm stuck here.
Grandma has been sick for a long time and she's always been in pain. So i guess it's a peace of mind knowing she no longer has to endure the pain, and is resting peacefully. I cannot say that I was very close to her. We never talked about anything more than the usual daily conversations about what i did, what i am doing and what i am going to do. Nonetheless, i treasure the short conversations i had with her, especially during the time i stayed at their house when i was working in kuantan, just a couple of months before i came to Adelaide. Then again, being a grandmother, she sometimes gets repetitive and it got on my nerves. During my stay in kuantan i wondered whether i would be angry at myself for feeling the way i did, when she has passed away. But i guess we all get angry and annoyed by some things, and we can't blame ourselves for it. Right? Anyway, just the thought that i did think about it makes me feel better now for how i felt then. (i dont know how much sense i am making, but i need some place to rant to make myself feel better.)
I will miss her. She always knew exactly what I liked or didnt like to eat. She gave me the jewelry that i wear everyday (i hope mum found the ring i need to get fixed). I'm extremely grateful that i was fortunate enough to be there for her birthday last year.
She is the first family member i lost (my ah-kong passed away when i was very little and i didnt remember it...). i guess i shouldn't say 'lost'. she lives in our hearts forever :)

So much for life...

A couple of my schoolmates died in a car accident yesterday. I wasn't a close friend, but I knew them. I spent a week on a ship in perth with Alex and I remember little things like how he was seasick for a few days and how we had the same camera. I have a picture with him. I didn't know William well either. But I remember taking a picture with him during a friend's birthday party. I cannot say that I was close to either of them. Yet it is difficult to ignore what happened.

These two people are my age. We went to the same school. Heck, we just got out of school a year ago. These two people have just started university. They should have their whole lives ahead of them waiting to be LIVED. But all of a sudden everything just ends. Life stops there for them. Isn't it unfair? I am sure there are hundereds of things they want to do which hasn't been done. I know if I die today, I would not be satisfied. It makes me realise how short life can be. It reminds me to never hold back. Do what you want because you only live once, and you never know when it will come to an end.

Alex and William may you rest in peace.

Note: I actually wrote this a couple of days ago when i didnt have an internet connection at home. i'm currently using some random wireless signal my computer has managed to detect and connect!

There was a time when I wondered why I was so nice to some people who don’t seem to appreciate what I do for them. I did what I did because they’re my friends. Now I sometimes feel like I’m the one doing the ignoring. I guess when we manage to have a friend we know we can depend on, we take for granted what they do for us. I need to stop being such a pig and get back to who I was before. Or who I think I was before. It’s not fair, and I hate being taken for granted so it’s only right that I try my best not to do that to someone else.

On a different note, to the bunny: I said I would do this ages ago. So here’s your list:
1) Be confident. Most of the time you’re right. (I speak from experience J)
2) Reduce food conversations from about 90% to um… 50%? Haha. That applies to me too I guess… ><
3) Eat proper meals. Think protein, carbo, and veges for every meal. (oh look, I’m talking about food again… =S)
4) Stop making simple decisions difficult. Like whether to buy bread or not.(food again!) I think we’re stressed enough without it. O yeah and you made me think so hard about chem. Prac too! But that wasn’t a simple decision was it…?

Ok end of list for now. I thought I had a few more last time but I can’t seem to remember…

Today's update:
a weekend of butt shaking has left me completely exhausted. and behind on studies. but i'll catch up. sometime...

*grin*

1) I'm finally online on MY computer again.
2) I did not lose my phone-computer cable.
therefore...
3) PICTURES!! (and more pictures from my camera...) Enjoy. :)

My new room...

Before...
... After
Before...
... After

Before... (hi conie! :P) ... After
Me and my little zoo...hehe.

And now for some home made food! a lot of them were up on Conie's blog but since i havent put them up myself i thought i should. conie and i made them during the holidays...

Kim bab/sushi.
onde-onde (with gula melaka inside. we should have had a picture of it opened too!)
Scones (slightly too brown :P) with butter and jam

Self-saucing chocolate pudding.

And this is what i made a couple of days ago...

*ta-da* Chicken Cordon Bleu! inside it...
close up... :) hungry?
forgive me for gloating. im proud of myself! haha.

(ok. so the format is a bit messy. but i cant help it. blogger is being silly.)

i gotta go to lecture now. so bye!

back-to-uni depression...

i can't concentrate.
i hate chem! i need to do chem though. last semester's cramming just before tests is something i dont want to do again this semester! but i cant help it. i cant concentrate on this until i really have to. agh. so instead of using my time doing somsething more productive, im here rambling about chemistry because this is supposed to be my 'chemistry study' time. and i got all my chem stuff laid out in front of me. im just not reading. well no, ive read. but nothings gone into my head. just a waste of time reading throughe verytthing.
1 more hour before the library closes.

hmmph.

bye.

AAAAAAHhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

I think i lost the cable to connect my phone to the computer. i wanted to upload some pictures (YES I WAS ACTUALLY GOING TO UPLOAD PICTURES) and my sad computer does not have bluetooth... SO i need that cable! and I CANT FIND IT! *cry*
now what???

ANyway. Breathe. Calm down. *inhale* *hold for a sec* *exhaaaaaleeeeeeee*

on a brighter note. i survived my first 8 hr stretch of classes. now left a 2 hr lecture tomorrow which doesn't sound too bad.
and i dissected an earthworm yesterday! i so wanted to take a picture of it. but the demonstrators had nothing to do so they decided to help me clear up... so it was gone.:( (but now i cant connect my hpone to the com so doesnt matter anyway! ><)

agh.
hokai.no pictures. sorrie.

im going out for a while since i have NOTHING to do at home. how depressing. andi thoughtid be happy after finishing thursday class...
bye!