Holiday Homework.

Tagged.

1) The most recent picture of yours

Friday night. THE most recent :)

2) A picture of you making a peace sign

I'm on the right!

3) A picture of you with your FRIENDS

Adelaide

Singapore

Malaysia (Sibu)
(i realise i dont have a group picture from korea or kuantan...)

4) A picture of you at a weird/random place

I think that was up some hill at fleureau peninsula

5) A picture of you in black and white

Look a bit weird here. Leaver's week- rockstar day.

6) A picture of you and your hair tied up UN night 2004! i used to be a lot skinnier... :(

7) A picture of you with a weird face
...
8) A picture of you wearing BLACK coloured shirt
concert!

9) A picture of you wearing RED coloured shirt

10) A picture of you wearing GREEN coloured shirt

japanese curry in marina square

11) A picture of you with your Halloween costume

ok so its a crap costume. but we didnt really plan to go... and i havent done anything else for halloween...

12) A picture of you with your mouth wide open

my sister is yummy... what can i say? :P

13) A picture of you in your formal attire

graduation may 06

14) A picture of you at the beach

sentosa!
15) A family portrait of yours

my lovely family with a new member- mr. koala

I tag:(ah i dono who reads my blog.. so difficult to tag!)
1)Sheila Lin! (do only if you really have the time... :)
2) Chian ur (you're on holiday! no excuse! :P)
3) Alycia Lim. (If you ever show up here...)
4) Andeline (hehe... i dono who else to tag. since i recently found your blog...)
5) Margaret (YOU NEED TO UPDATE YOUR BLOG!)

Suddenly!

I'm done with exams!
I'm on holiday!
I'm going home in 6 days!
I'm going to cambodia!
I need to pack!
I need to give up all my 'adelaide plans'!
I need to do something to help my brother survive 2 months alone.
I need to get over being so shocked.

I need SLEEP.

I have a MASSIVE pimple on my chin. GREAT timing. =.=

Goodnight!

Tuesday 10:30pm

Biology... *tick*

Chemistry... *tick*

Pharmaceutics... I'm working on it.

Statistics... I'll be thinking about it in about 20 hours time...


See, i said i'll get chem done on time. i did. :) thanks dr howard!! i love her to bits for telling us whats on the exam :P

1 down. 3 to go

and its the worst 2 papers on 2 consecutive days. (Chem and pharmaceutics) and IM NOT READY. but i just finished a bio exam and 3.5 hours of scribbling is physically draining. it doesnt help that its 32C today and its super HOT.

i got an interview tomorrow at 10am.

Kind of silly to be so worried about it cuz i believe i wont get the job since im leaving adelaide on the 22nd Dec. if i dont get the 30th Nov flight.

im getting all depressed again. but im supposed to be HAPPY. BIO IS DONE. YAY.

(but i like bio...)

Anyway, to make things a bit more cheery- my pharmaceutics dispensing test went well. my patients' doses were right and i think their medication would have the perfect label on the bottle! lol. such a weird test... :S

I just finished my bio practical test and im feeling a little bit more... calm. (it actually wasn't too bad, but there were a number of things im worried about)
I'm still a bit excited though. Next class is our last dispensing tutorial and the last chance i get to make sure i know how to make labels correctly. kind of silly how something as simple as making a label can be so.... i cant think of the word for it... bah. whatever.

I actually really like this semester's biology. not that i know everythign about it, i assume i know more than half of what i've been taught this sem, but i haven't actually gone through my notes and the textbooks so i have TONS to study before the exam in 2 weeks time, (OMG ITS IN 2 WEEKS!!) and on top of that i need to learn my chemistry.(and pharmaceutics and stats but im not too worried about that now....) in chem- everything's NEW. agh.
but guess what, next year EVERYTHING in EVERY SUBJECT is NEW.

la la la...

i got emails to reply.

=S

INTERVIEWS ARE SO NERVE WRECKING!!!!!!!

First of all, i wasn't expecting something so formal. i thought it was just a casual, walk-in talk thing just so they know who i am.

Then the chairs she made me sit on... omg its like one of those beach chairs where thers a metal rim around the whole thing, and the seat and back support is a canvas cloth thingie. I was trying to sit and still look poised (??) in it but its difficult.

And she asked questions i had no idea how to answer...

And then finding out at the end of the interview that there's about 14 applicants in total doesn't make me feel any better.

And now over an hour after that interview i realised theres a lot of things i could have said that i didnt say and a lot of things i shouldn't have said that i said
and ahhhh its all so silly.

The thing is, now i think about it, i dont think that's my first interview. (i thought it was... cuz i forgot about the first) i had one when i applied for Guardian in Singapore. but that was easy. I think they were actually short on staff. so i would get the job no matter what.

oh well. i have a bio practical test in about 15 mins, so i should get going.

*Free my mind... empty my head... THINK BIO. not jobs and interviews. yes. bio. biobiobiobiobiobiobio.... *

Market day turned out to be more interesting than usual...

Went to the market today as usual...
There was a solar powered cars exhibition (or whatever it was) sort of thing at victoria square (where the bus stop was). So since we had about 15mins wait for the bus to come, we (me and my brother) took a walk around. I felt kind of sorry for them today though. It's the Gloomiest day i've seen in adelaide... of all days to have a solar powered cars thing... :S oh well, at least the cars still moved. (some didnt... but thats possibly just because their car is lousy. haha)

Competition for little solar powered cars.
Nice Green car :) No idea why that's there though. i dont see how that's solar powered... :S
Nice silver car... (also dont see how its solar powered...)
I think this was the one on tv... or maybe it wasnt. they all look the same :S anyway. i wonder how you get into that car...

this one looks cool. :)

There are a few more pictures but im lazy so im not putting them up. :) im sure you ppl dont mind anyway, since me posting up SOME pictures is good enough right??? :D

Anyway, being completely random now...
I had a cup of milo, coffee and tea today. i never drink so many 'breakfast drinks' in one day. kind of weird. anyway, then i had like, lots of bread for brunch.
so lazy.
anyway, im cooking fried bee hoon for dinner. so im not THAT Lazy after all. better than my brother.

random pictures

This is me with curly hair and pyjamas. and looking a bit fat. the hair's not permanent. im not sure about the fat though... =SThis us us working on our group assignment, with lots of food, and looking very pro with a laptop each. behind the camera :)
Strawberries! they're yummy and pretty affordable now :)

Conie has a massive hand. kidding. its an oven glove. (yes im being lame. conie please dont kill me. its a cute pic.) thats conie's lab partner.

This is my chesmitry lab partner Jessica I found this in the lab where we did gas chromatography. isnt it the cutest little glass bottle? :)

Since i mentoned gas chromatography, this is the machine. We used needles which would inject like... 0.02mls of stuff into copper wires in that machine at like.. 200deg C or something. i dont quite remember what.... but it was a long boring prac whichi didnt get full marks on. i believe it wasnt our fault. the machine was faulty. ALL our values were slightly lower than what it should be. doesnt that mean something??? we repeated it a few times and it was constant, but low constant. silly silly experiment.

chemicals chemicals... chemistry is cool this way. we used to use like 0.1M acid at school. now we get to use a lot more concentrated stuff. :) (i know, im a bit of a geek...)

This is us posing at City East campus at 1am after a night of work at uni. L to R: conie, alwyn, me, ben.

Chocolate pancakes with ice cream and nutella (because there was no chocolate to melt...) looks good? that was breakfast. inspired by supper the night before at the pancake house. i cant figure out how to make very fluffy pancakes. maybe its baking soda im lacking... i need to get some.

We are trees.

Can they get any cuter? :)

More fluffy cutesys with the mummy (or daddy) swan.

Torrens river is pretty.
Torrens river was also crowded. There was an australian food and wine festival or something like that...

The end of pictures. hope you enjoyed the show. i will have another picture update some other time. i love my new (but sadly, very unfortunate and battered because i keep dropping it) phone. the pictures here are all from my phone camera :)

Eeek.

A bit late now, but i'm halfway through revision for a test tomorrow and i realised i might have made quite a LOT of mistakes for my stats assignment! I just assumed im always right cuz well its friggin STATS. cant go so wrong. but i was just reading through some notes and i really think i messed up something. more than something. a few things. =S

stupid...... >< see, you shouldn't be lazy. it doesn't pay.

k. back to study.

Hi.

It’s one of those blog entries where you’d have no idea what I’m on about. And if you think you know, well- You’re wrong. :P

OK. So there’s a question that a friend of mine asked me a few days ago. Probably a week or so ago. At that time I didn’t know what to answer because well… one of the reasons was because I really didn’t know. But now I think I know the answer to that and it’s unfortunately rather depressing. Funnily enough I’m not that distracted by it. Maybe because its been extremely busy at uni and all that. Oh well. Another time :)

You're not trying hard enough.


Thats it with the incomprehensible part... back to normal blogging that makes some sense~(is this small? cuz its NOT supposed to be small. it looks normal sized here but when i 'publish post' it turns out small. tell me its not small...)

By the way, I’m procrastinating (duh…) . Because I have work. Why else would I procrastinate?
It’s gonna be a busy busy week. And the weeks ahead will be just as busy. All the way until the end of exams…….. ah im so scared!

I can’t wait to go home. Unfortunately that will only be a month after my last exam. Hopefully I find something to do for that month. I NEED TO GET A JOB(work experience)! If not I’m dead and ill be kicking myself for not going home sooner.

*breathe*

Ill be fine.

Love. For Music.

Or mainly just my piano and classical pieces. Not the weird contemporary pieces they usually make us play for the ‘C’ pieces in an exam.

I turned on music from the examination songs CD today and instead of just letting it play in the background like I usually do with other music, I put on my earphones and sat down and actually listened to it. In the freakiest way, all of a sudden my heart started racing and I got the Goosebumps. I imagined myself on the piano playing the pieces, and just like I was on the piano my mind wandered off and I was in a state of complete relaxation…

One of the pieces I did for my exam was by Scarlatti and when that piece was playing on itunes, my mind wandered to my piano teacher’s house as we went through that song over and over again, trying to get my touch, tempo and dynamics right. I remember playing it over and over again at home trying to remember exactly what it was my teacher wanted me to do. I realized then how much I miss my piano back home and how I wished I had a piano here right now. I miss the piano so much I feel like crying. I’m not the greatest pianist on earth, and I can’t play as well as the recordings I’m listening to, but being able to sit at the piano, and tinkle a little something (whether correctly or wrongly) and open any music score and be able to play a few notes from every piece is just a really good feeling. I feel sorry for people who are missing out on it. I feel so fortunate that I was able to do that every single day. No matter how much I am concentrating on a piece to make sure I get everything about it correct, being on the piano always lets my mind wander off, and it’s the perfect way to relax. Of course not many people know that it’s completely relaxing and after that I usually pretend I’m tired and need a rest before actually going on to do some schoolwork. :) (mum doesn’t know…)

I can’t wait to get home. But um… where is my piano anyway? With all the moving of stuff I’m not sure where it is… need to make a mental note to ask mum where it is!

The closest thing I have to a piano now is a computer keyboard. Which is NO WHERE NEAR!

see, it makes people happy. we're all smiling! :) and thats my beloved piano

“Who Am I?”

This is a question I posted on ‘Facebook’ just a while ago.
So far I’ve received two answers, and both said – Laurane. If that’s not you, who are you?
Well, it’s pretty obvious that I’m Laurane. But who exactly is she?
- a person
- a sister
- a daughter
- a teenager
- a student
- a Malaysian
- a Chinese
- a complex organic compound??
But is that all that defines who someone is? I am Laurane. I am all that I have mentioned above, but what makes me different from other people, sisters, daughters, teenagers, students etc.?
Who do people perceive me as?
- A stubborn person?
- A caring person?
- A good friend?
- A bad friend?
- A sensitive person?
- Someone who tries too hard?
- Someone who wants to be everything?
The possibilities are endless.
So who am I? If I cannot answer this question myself, how can others?

Here’s who I think I am.
I think I am considerate, I care for my friends and family, I’m logical, friendly to most people, easy to get along with, positive, a bit messy and a bit unorganized but I know where things are. I am proud of my achievements. I work hard when I need to, I have fun when I can.

But I’m not all that great. I think I need to work on being more understanding. I think I can be a better friend. I sometimes talk too much or in other situations, talk too little. I am sometimes too straightforward and I hurt other people without knowing and I sometimes (but very rarely) hurt people on purpose and don’t feel bad about it. I sometimes judge others before knowing who they really are. I am easily influenced by some things. I’m sometimes very boring- I don’t joke around about silly things for too long. I sometimes take things too seriously. I am quite stubborn, I hate being wrong and I can be quite big-headed at times.

At the end of the day, we are all human and there’s good and bad in everyone. I try to be someone that everyone can get along with but I know that is not possible. So for the time being, I am just being myself and like it or not this is who I am. :)

rojak.

whoa! internet explorer at uni is more hi-tech than mine at home! it looks better and instead of opening a gazillion windows, it lets you open a gazillion tabs... in one window. mine's still old fashioned :(

anyway, i met the Lord Mayor of Adelaide (Michael Harbison) last night. which i thought was pretty cool. I've never been to a reception like that before. got to dress nice, sip wine and take finger food from waitresses walking around with large trays... :) just like in the movies. haha. and there was a professional photographer who took pictures of us with the mayor and we got a copy of that immediately. the reception was only about an hour long. talk about efficient! and it wasnt just a copy of the picture. it came in a black card with a note from the mayor. it was nice.
then we walked to chinatown for dinner. in high heels and dresses and it was cold. and my feet hurt. so thankfully my friend drove us home later after walking halfway... (back to her car)

I think god thinks theres too many people in this world. So he's been taking away lots of people in the past month. My condolences to e and m who have lost someone recently.

is my mood that obvious to figure out? maybe just today... we all have our down times. i think im not used to doing so many things in such little time. i'm a little overwhelmed. nice short break today. back to studying a bit. and then party starts tomorrow night again :)

stats assignment... its a bit strange. i hope he's not so particular with our answers. I somehow always manage to miss out little details which add up and cost quite a few marks. like in the calculus assignments last sem. its not that i dont now how to do stuff. i just write as little as possible for my answers. i dont know why, i just do. so i shouldnt this time i think. stats seem to require lots of jabbering. seriously. my lecture notes make no sense whatsoever cuz he tends to write so much just to explain something simple.

k. back to work.

outlet... dont know if you make any sense out of it. but.. whatever.

If my friend has a problem, i would love it if i'm the first person they turn to for comfort. Rant, complain, spew out everything. But(/and?) in response, isnt it only right to have some feeling towards what that person has just said? isnt it normal that you respond to what they have to say? if it is a 'problem' i highly doubt that it will be positive. And to be all happy-go-lucky about what that person has just told you isn't normal. At least that is what i believe. I believe it's not possible to find someone who you can tell all your problems to without that person feeling troubled. What's the point of talking to them about it if you don't want to share that feeling? Just because i respond negatively to what you have to say doesn't mean i dont want to hear anything about it. I appreciate it when my friends come to me to discuss problems. It shows that they trust me and appreciate me back as a friend. So yes, maybe sometimes i do complain about it. But all of us need an outlet. Best friend or not we all get frustrated by some things sometimes.
Just know that even though sometimes i get irritated and frustrated by some things you do or say, i love and appreciate my friends, and i never mean to do any harm. I can be quite blunt sometimes, and i apologise.

Life Is Good. (with pictures at the end...)

I hope this is the turning point of what has been a rather depressing start of studies in Adelaide. I had expectations before I got here. Many expectations. maybe too many. It hasn't been complete hell, but it could have been better.
Today proved to me that if i actually made an effort to get involved, things do happen. But sacrifices need to be made. Studying my butt off at uni every night this week hopefully paid off. The chem test today went better than i expected. That is, if what i thought was the correct answer is really the correct answer. At uni, the problem is, you never really know whether what you're doing is really correct until you get it marked. and you don't get many things marked... unless it really counts. and by then its a bit too late. My first test was crap. So i freaked out and studied for this one :)

Anyway... the past 2 weeks have been physically and emotionally a rollercoaster... Just the thing about meeting new people and liking some people and not liking some people and some people having problems with other people which causes problems for other people.... yes i just said people like 7 times... but its the root of all problems right?? and then thers lots of other problems and things happening... and your brain can only work up to a certain capacity before its completely saturated and you cant think, cant concentrate and you turn a bit cranky. and ultimately- a bit depressed.

BUT its finally the holidays and today has been a pretty good day even though it involved a test, and a 2 hour bio leture at 4-6 in the evening.

I'm now MySA's new Vice President along with Ben. New President is Alwyn, the 3 Event Coordinators are none other than Margaret, conie and yinlu- somehow all of us from the merdeka performance... Adrian changed position from treasurer to secretary, treasurer is now someone called... i dont remember his name (yes im doing very well as VP... ><), Desmond is Welfare officer, Joa wenn is publicity officer (i think thats what those positions are) and i need help in filling out the other positions... haha. i totally suck.but thats cuz we havent had a meeting yet! so i will be all sorted as soon as we meet up. :) SO fingers crossed, things will be good the rest of this semester, and for the rest of my studies in adelaide. I'll have a lot more work to do and need to seriously work on time management, but if a 3rd year pharmacy student can be president and make everything work, why cant i? :)

And just for fun since i have the time... some random pictures from my phone...

Our work of art on the whiteboard during one of the dance rehearsals- before other people arrived:
The artists, Margaret, Conie, ME. :)
Sunset from outside my apartment...
I was studying! :P
Fried fish. yummy. chef? -me. muahaha!
THe sign at the bus stop- where my brother and I waited 15 mins for a bus. We live 1 bus stop away- 10 mins walk.
For those who still hasnt seen my lecture hall, although i love it so much i think ive posted a few pictures of it before, here it is again...
Bull's eye dissection!!! :PSpring is here!

Hope you enjoyed the pictures. have a good day :)

stupidity

Thinking about things i shouldnt be spending too much time thinking about.
Angry at myself, regretting something... and wishing for something, but i think that something else might be going on and its not fair. I hope my brain is just being too active. je dois parler avec quel q'un!! ah... my french is going.

for the moment- think CHEM. nothing else. if something's supposed to happen, it will happen.

Instructions to self:
1)bang head on the red stars








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2) then wipe the computer screen clean...
3) go do something productive

Merdeka Dinner and stuff.

I think i've had enough depressing blog entries.
Saturday night was a dinner to celebrate Malaysia's 50 years of Merdeka!
For the past month we've been rehearsing for that night, so we all hoped it would go well. It wasnt brilliant, but it could have been worse. all in all, we had great fun and food was good although it reminded me of grad dinner agian where i had to grab some food, stuff some food down, then go on stage, then come back and stuff more (cold) food down my throat. But i guess it could have been worse.
Took loads of pictures. They will be on facebook SOON. im currently at uni and it wont let me upload pictures on facebook like we usually do - the entire album. i need to upload them ONE BY ONE on this computer cuz it needs upgrading. =.=

If anyone wants to see pictures immediately, I'm sure Conie has some on her blog. check out my links...

I'll post ONE picture just to be nice:

That's almost all of us (Desmond isnt there...) in our modern dance costume. Clockwise starting from me: me!:), cindy, elaine, shereen (3 sisters), conie, yin lu, margaret and center- Ram.

Since ive been spending my weekends rehearsing, and with everything that has happened in the past couple of weeks, i havent been able to concentrate much on my work. SO its about time i start catching up with my studies. I am WAY behind and i got 3 tests next week. i think i;'m only going to really prepare for ONE out of the 3. because 1 of them doesnt count, and the other one shouldnt be too difficult. Chem. agh. why am i doing pharmacy? is it too late to quit? or too early to give up?

Never really gone

Grandma passed away on the night of the 1st of September. Tomorrow's her cremation. I don't know if i want to be there for it, but whether i want to or not, i dont have a choice. I'm stuck here.
Grandma has been sick for a long time and she's always been in pain. So i guess it's a peace of mind knowing she no longer has to endure the pain, and is resting peacefully. I cannot say that I was very close to her. We never talked about anything more than the usual daily conversations about what i did, what i am doing and what i am going to do. Nonetheless, i treasure the short conversations i had with her, especially during the time i stayed at their house when i was working in kuantan, just a couple of months before i came to Adelaide. Then again, being a grandmother, she sometimes gets repetitive and it got on my nerves. During my stay in kuantan i wondered whether i would be angry at myself for feeling the way i did, when she has passed away. But i guess we all get angry and annoyed by some things, and we can't blame ourselves for it. Right? Anyway, just the thought that i did think about it makes me feel better now for how i felt then. (i dont know how much sense i am making, but i need some place to rant to make myself feel better.)
I will miss her. She always knew exactly what I liked or didnt like to eat. She gave me the jewelry that i wear everyday (i hope mum found the ring i need to get fixed). I'm extremely grateful that i was fortunate enough to be there for her birthday last year.
She is the first family member i lost (my ah-kong passed away when i was very little and i didnt remember it...). i guess i shouldn't say 'lost'. she lives in our hearts forever :)

So much for life...

A couple of my schoolmates died in a car accident yesterday. I wasn't a close friend, but I knew them. I spent a week on a ship in perth with Alex and I remember little things like how he was seasick for a few days and how we had the same camera. I have a picture with him. I didn't know William well either. But I remember taking a picture with him during a friend's birthday party. I cannot say that I was close to either of them. Yet it is difficult to ignore what happened.

These two people are my age. We went to the same school. Heck, we just got out of school a year ago. These two people have just started university. They should have their whole lives ahead of them waiting to be LIVED. But all of a sudden everything just ends. Life stops there for them. Isn't it unfair? I am sure there are hundereds of things they want to do which hasn't been done. I know if I die today, I would not be satisfied. It makes me realise how short life can be. It reminds me to never hold back. Do what you want because you only live once, and you never know when it will come to an end.

Alex and William may you rest in peace.

Note: I actually wrote this a couple of days ago when i didnt have an internet connection at home. i'm currently using some random wireless signal my computer has managed to detect and connect!

There was a time when I wondered why I was so nice to some people who don’t seem to appreciate what I do for them. I did what I did because they’re my friends. Now I sometimes feel like I’m the one doing the ignoring. I guess when we manage to have a friend we know we can depend on, we take for granted what they do for us. I need to stop being such a pig and get back to who I was before. Or who I think I was before. It’s not fair, and I hate being taken for granted so it’s only right that I try my best not to do that to someone else.

On a different note, to the bunny: I said I would do this ages ago. So here’s your list:
1) Be confident. Most of the time you’re right. (I speak from experience J)
2) Reduce food conversations from about 90% to um… 50%? Haha. That applies to me too I guess… ><
3) Eat proper meals. Think protein, carbo, and veges for every meal. (oh look, I’m talking about food again… =S)
4) Stop making simple decisions difficult. Like whether to buy bread or not.(food again!) I think we’re stressed enough without it. O yeah and you made me think so hard about chem. Prac too! But that wasn’t a simple decision was it…?

Ok end of list for now. I thought I had a few more last time but I can’t seem to remember…

Today's update:
a weekend of butt shaking has left me completely exhausted. and behind on studies. but i'll catch up. sometime...

*grin*

1) I'm finally online on MY computer again.
2) I did not lose my phone-computer cable.
therefore...
3) PICTURES!! (and more pictures from my camera...) Enjoy. :)

My new room...

Before...
... After
Before...
... After

Before... (hi conie! :P) ... After
Me and my little zoo...hehe.

And now for some home made food! a lot of them were up on Conie's blog but since i havent put them up myself i thought i should. conie and i made them during the holidays...

Kim bab/sushi.
onde-onde (with gula melaka inside. we should have had a picture of it opened too!)
Scones (slightly too brown :P) with butter and jam

Self-saucing chocolate pudding.

And this is what i made a couple of days ago...

*ta-da* Chicken Cordon Bleu! inside it...
close up... :) hungry?
forgive me for gloating. im proud of myself! haha.

(ok. so the format is a bit messy. but i cant help it. blogger is being silly.)

i gotta go to lecture now. so bye!